Just a Little Reckless (An Adym Alyxander Yorba Fanfiction)

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i woke up and looked at the clock. it was 2am. i couldn't seem to fall asleep again. I just layed there thinking about the picnic. Then my phone vibrated. Who would be up at this hour? I checked my phone.

stalker😔: when you get this just know that goodnight text was nothing. he does it to all of your friends and you're not special to him. kate is special to him. not you. you're a nothing. ~A😊

i kept reading the part where my stalker said i'm not special to him. i read it to the point where i couldn't see the words on my screen anymore because of the tears blurring my vision. The only two people who knew about the goodnight text is me and adym. I wouldn't text myself that so i guess it had to be adym. But it couldn't be. He's so sweet and kind.

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**WARNING: DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ ABOUT DEPRESSION!!!! I WILL TELL YOU WHEN ITS OVER!! JUST SKIP IF YOU WANT TO!!!!!**
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I went to my hidden spot and took out a one of my blades. I thought i would have a fresh start but I guess not. I hovered the blade over my wrist crying so hard but so quiet and made a slit. I did it a few more times and cleaned up my wrist. I wasn't crying because it hurt. I was crying because i realized that what my stalker is saying might be true.
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I went back to bed but couldn't fall asleep. I just stayed up for the rest of the night. All of my nights were like this this week. I would go to sleep around 10 or 11 then wake up around 2 or 3 and get a text from A. Since it signed its texts A i guess that's what it goes by. My attitude didn't change in school or around my friends and family. I learned to hide it and I guess i was doing a pretty good job because no one seemed to notice anything different.

today was the day. today was prom. our whole group was going, even Z. she's going with tayler. so cute. i stayed in my room most of the day. there was no need to go anywhere.

i got. a text that morning at 10 from maddie saying she was coming at 3. raya said she would be there at 4:30 and all the guys said they were picking us up at 6.

i didn't eat anything all day. every time i heard someone coming upstairs, i would pretend to sleep.

i looked at the clock and it was 2. i decided to shower because maddie would be here in an hour. after my shower, i put on sweatpants and a t-shirt. i put my hair in a towel and sat in my original spot again. i didn't feel like being social all day. i looked at my wrist and saw my scars. they faded but still kind of noticeable.

i heard a knock at my door. i pretended i was sleeping again and the person walked in.
" i know you're not sleeping, tam." it was maddie.

"hey, i thought you were Z or my mom. i didn't want to do anything today because i'm in a lazy mood." i lied.

"my sister's team is looking for a center fielder. i got you a private tryout next week."

"oh my god. really? thanks. i've been dying to play again."

"welcome. it's from 9 to 11 in the morning next saturday. you can sleepover friday and we can take you to practice. you're mom is already in board with the idea. just to let you know, they're older than us do you would be the youngest on the team." maddie informed me.

"okay, that's fine. i didn't that last year." i said.

"good. shall we get ready then?" she said clearly excited.

"yeah, lets go and raya is going to be here in like 45 minutes."

we got dressed and raya walked in. maddie did my make up and hair. i put it into a high ponytail and she curled it. it was cute. i looked in my full length mirror and smiled, satisfied with the way i looked.

we all stayed in my room and waited for Z to walk in. she finally did and she looked amazing. My mom called us down saying the guys were here. We walked down and my eyes landed on Adym. his tux looked good on him. he just kept staring at me. i had to snap him out of it so we could take pictures.

we took pictures at the bridge by our house. it was beautiful. we headed to the school and no one really notice that we walked in.

we decided on a spot to meet up after and went our separate ways. adym took me to the dance floor and started dancing. i shrugged and danced with him. after a while maddie and joey met up with us. they didn't dance long just like 2 songs. i started feeling a little dizzy but i shook it off. joey called adym over and i got pulled away by kate and haley.

"you need to stay away from adym. i told you once and i'll tell you again. you're dead meat if you hang out with him." she said a few more things but my mind was somewhere else.

everything was blurry and i couldn't see much. i saw adym sitting at a table with the rest of our group.

"hey where you been?" he said.

"umm bathroom. i think." i said not really paying attention.

just then everything went blurry then white.