You Found Me (COMPLETED)

Chapter 49

Harry's POV

I walked into school dreading being there. After I woke up from my nightmare I didn't go back to sleep. But I couldn't miss today I had tests. "Mate what's wrong?" Niall asked. "Been up since 3am." I mumbled. "Sorry man. Was it because of Macey?" He asked. "Nah. When I'm stressed I have nightmares." He nodded. "Where's Liam?" I asked. "He's sick." Niall frowned. "Awe lover boy don't worry you still have me." I laughed. He made a face making me laugh more.

I looked at the test in front of me and sighed rubbing my forehead. I knew this stuff but I couldn't think. I couldn't focus. My head was throbbing. My eyes just wanted to close and my brain was focused on Maisyn. I tried my best to focus and answer the best I could. I would take a D- at this point. Anything as long as I pass.

I turned in the test before making my way out of the room. The bell had just rang. "Hey mate you coming to lunch?" Niall asked. "I'm going to go talk to Lou." I said. He nodded. "I'm going to go see Liam so I'll see ya later." I nodded and started walking to Louis's room. I walked into the room but stopped when I heard someone talking. It was the Chemistry teacher. Ms. Calder. "You should call me some time." She giggled handing it to Louis. She was leaning over his desk trying to "show what's she's got". I turned around and ran out slamming the door shut. I don't know where I was going but I wanted out. I found myself sitting in the bleachers of the gym. Alone.

May be triggering :(
I felt something I haven't felt in a long time. The familiar itch made its way to my arms. I needed it. I walked to my locker making sure to avoid any sign of Louis or anyone. I went through my locker knowing I'd have something in there. I sighed in relief when I found a pencil sharpener. I picked out the blade and walked to the bathroom. I closed myself in the stall and slumped against the wall. I rolled up the sleeves of my sweatshirt and took a shaky breath. I slid the blade across the wrist. The pain. The burn. I ached for it. I made another mark. Then another and another. I didn't notice the bell ring for my next class or the tears that made their way down my cheeks.

I leaned my head against the wall. I felt light headed. I looked down to see cuts along both of my arms. Tests. Ms. Calder. Louis...Maisyn. Why did I do this? I supposed to be strong. I realized what I just did. I gave up. I let it all get to me. I broke promises. How am I supposed to be strong when I can't even deal with stress. I let out a choked sob. I made sure no one was in the bathroom and washed my arms the burning making me wince. I quickly dried off my arms and threw the blade away. I pulled my sweatshirt down and walked to my 6th period class. It was the only other class that I had a test in so I needed to be there.

Mr Murs gave me a look when I walked in saying why are you late but I just looked down. He sighed and handed me my test and leaving me be. I went through the test answering what I could and guessing on the rest. The bell ring but Mr Murs told me to finish and he would write me a pass. I thanked him and finished the test quickly.

I was 15 minutes late to my last class. Louis's class. I didn't want to go. But I need to learn how to be strong. Not let things get to me. I have to learn. I walked into the room and everyone was working on worksheets in groups so Louis was sitting at his desk. He looked up at me and looked like he wanted to say something. I knew he couldn't. I handed him the pass. He handed me the worksheets whispering "I'm sorry." I didn't answer I just turned away but he grabbed my wrist making me whimper. I prayer he didn't notice but of course he did. I pulled away not giving him a chance to say anything and walked to Niall.

"So how's Liam?" I asked Niall as we worked on the worksheet. "Okay I guess. When I went over there he looked miserable but insisted he was fine. Ya know usual Liam." He frowned. "Don't worry niall he'll be fine. That's just Liam. He never wants people worrying about him." I said patting Niall's back. He's a softy. Especially about Liam.

"See ya tomorrow Ni." I said walking to my car. I had bolted from the room after the bell rang wanting to avoid Louis. I sent him a quick text saying I was getting Macey. I turned the radio up hoping to drown out my thoughts. I regret what I did.

"Hey Jay." I smiled walking in the house. "Harry how are you?" She smiled pulling me in for a hug. "Good." I smiled. "You don't have to lie love. What's going on?" She frowned pulling me to the couch. She reminds me of my mum before everything went wrong. She could always see right through the lies. "Just stressed with school and everything. Not getting much sleep and tests." I shrugged leaving out the part about Louis. "Oh love. I'm sorry. Don't over whelm yourself. Just trust that you know what you're doing. Cramming for things and stressing only makes it worse." I nodded. "Thanks Jay. I should get going though." She nodded. I strapped Macey into her carrier. I gave jay a hug bye and said bye to all the girls and Ernie before leaving.

I walked into the house. I took off my coat and shoes. Then took Macey out of her car seat holding her sleeping body to my chest. I walked into the kitchen where Louis sat with his head in his hands. He must not have heard us come in. I heard him sniffle. I frowned and put Macey in her swing. I sat down next to Louis making him look up. I didn't even get a chance to say anything before he pulled me into his lap and holding me close. I heard him start crying louder. I know I couldn't be mad at him. He didn't do anything. It was Ms. Calder. I hugged him back.

"Lou please stop crying." I frowned. "Why? Why did you do it? You promised! I know you saw Ms. Calder and I but babe you know I love you. Not her. After you ran out I flipped out on her. I love you! Not anyone else! So why? Why'd you do it? You promised!" He yelled. "I-I don't know. I'm stressed. You don't understand. The nightmares are back. They only get mad when I'm stressed. The tests not sleeping lou I don't know what to do anymore. I'm trying okay! I'm trying to be strong! I regret what I did. Okay! I regret it! I'm weak but I'm trying to be strong! I have to learn how to be! I'm trying. So hard." I yelled back. "You have me! I'm here to help but Harry all you do is shut me out! Talk to me!" He yelled. "Please!" He said softly.

I laid down in bed next to Louis. He pulled me to his chest. "Can I see please?" He whispered. I nodded. He pulled the sleeve of my sweater up. He sighed and brought his lips down to the cuts. He kissed each one before moving to my other arm. Then to neck and finally my lips. "Please Lou." I whimpered. Instead of replying he kissed me harder.