You Found Me (COMPLETED)

Chapter 36

Harry's POV

I opened my eyes to see the sun shining through the split in the curtain. I smiled feeling Louis arm draped over my hip and his hand leaning against my stomach. Last night events ran through my head making me blush slightly. I didn't move afraid to wake up Louis, instead I lied in the silence.
"Your worthless! Pathetic! No one even wants you here! Not even your parents love you. No one can ever love you. You're an ugly fat ass." Nick smirked before pushing me into the lockers. Why. Why does this happen to me. What did I ever do. I took off running. I ran from school. I eventually wound up at my front door but I knew as soon as I stepped inside it'd be like nick was there but worse. I carefully opened the door trying to be quiet. Thankfully, for once, I made it inside and into my room without getting noticed. I snuck into my bathroom and locked the door. I looked in the mirror. Nick was right. I was ugly. I was fat. I'm worthless and pathetic. What's the point. Why should I keep going when I have no one. No one loves me. No one will ever love me. I sank to my knee and cried. I reached for the one thing that gave me relief. My razor. It gave me the feeling of being in control because for once I could control what I felt. I could control how deep it went or how many I cut. I pulled up my sleeve and drug the razor across my pale white wrists...
"...Harry! Babe snap out of it!" I looked to see Louis kneeled on the floor in front of me. I felt a tear roll down my cheeks. I sniffed them away and wiped my tears before Louis got the chance. I hate when I do this. I ruin every good moment because I can't get my past away. "Babe what happened?" I shook my head. "No don't I'm fine. I'm tired of ruining every good moment because I can't seem to get over what happened! So please just leave it." I said smiling him. He nodded. "Okay as long as your okay." I nodded. "Well then good morning." He said smiling placing his lips on mine.

"It's New Year's Eve babe!" I said excitedly. Louis smiled laughing at me. "Babe your so easy to please." I smirked. "Oh am I now." He shook his head. "Way to take everything dirty." I laughed. "So what do you want to do today?" Louis asked. "Honestly I just wanna lay here with you all day, but we are in Paris so if you wanna go do something today then let's go." I said. I really did just wanna cuddle all day because I'm sore, from being pregnant and last night. "Babe we can go out tomorrow if you wanna cuddle all day. That's completely fine." He replied. "Thank you because I'm kind of sore." He gave me a sympathetic smile.

We lied in bed tucked away in the covers. We talked quietly sometimes but for the most part it was quiet. I found myself closing me eyes and falling back asleep.

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I opened my eyes and rolled over looking for Louis only to find an empty bed. I frowned and rolled out of bed pulling on some sweats and a hoodie before walking out to the kitchen. I saw a note stuck to the fridge.
Haz,
Went to the store be back soon
Lou xxxxx
I went back into the room and decided to take a shower.

I sighed as the warm water ran down my body. My hands found my stomach. I wished I could feel something, anything to reassure me that she's still there. I don't want to lose her. I haven't even got to meet her yet. I miss her kicks, even though they hurt like hell and kept me up at night, but they showed me she was there and okay. I don't understand what I did. What did I do to make my parents hate me so much? I'm the same person I was 3 years ago. But it all changes because of who I love? I don't get it. I can't change. I don't want to change. I want to be happy and live my life.

"Babe?" I snapped out of thoughts. "I'll be out in a minute." I called. I shut off the water and dried off before pulling on some sweats and a t shirt. I hated wearing t shirts, you could see the scars. Some from me, some from my parents, some from nick. You could see it all. I hated it. I sighed and walked out going over to my suitcase. I found a sweater and went to change but I felt Louis hand stop me. "Babe you look beautiful. Those scars show how much shit you've been through and how strong you are! You don't need to be ashamed of them. Especially around me! You know I would never judge you. Your beautiful Harry, everything about you is beautiful!" He said before kissing me. "I don't know what I'd do without you Louis. I can't even put into words. I love you so much!" He smiled laughing slightly. "I love you too baby."

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"This is perfect." Louis smiles looking out at the sky. We sat, wrapped up in blankets and coats, on the balcony making small conversation. It was now 11:50 and you could see people gathered in the streets watching the sky waiting on fireworks to go off. "I couldn't agree more." I smiled cuddling into his side. He moved his arm to put it around me pulling me close. "I love you Harry so much! Don't ever forget that. And I know these next few months are going to be hard but no matter what I'm here for you and I'm never leaving. So never feel like you can't come to me because I'll always be here!" I looked up at him smiling. "I love you too Louis. And I know. You have no clue how thankful I am." I smiled. I leaned in to kiss Louis as the yells of people counting down could be heard from the balcony. I felt Louis lips on mine as fireworks went off and people below screamed and cheered. "Happy New Year baby!" "Happy New Year Lou!"