The Letters

Chapter 6: Letter Two

Alex's P.O.V.

I blink a couple of times before I open my eyes fully and look around. Harry is still lying next to me but he's fast asleep. I look down and realize I'm still in my dress from the funeral. I carefully climb out of bed and grab sweatpants, a sports bra, and a t-shirt and leave my room and go to the bathroom.

After I change I open the bathroom door and look towards Paige's room. I slowly and quietly walk to her room and turn the light on. I walk over to her bed and sit down on it. I feel the burn of tears at the corners of my eyes but I quickly wipe them away.

I look over at her nightstand and see a stack of envelopes. Curiously, I pick them up and look at them. They're labeled: Alex, Lucas, Rose, Rae, and Nathan. I take mine and open it, pulling out a letter. I take a deep breath before unfolding it and beginning to read it.

Dear Alex,

First off, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you by doing this I just couldn't take it anymore. Second, could you please make sure everyone gets there letter? Thank you.

I'm going to explain why I did this. You can probably already guess a big part of it is because of Lucas; that's obvious. After all of that happened I fell into a bad depression and I tried so hard to get out of it but I couldn't. His friends were always talking shit about me and being asses to me. I did this because it'll make life easier for everyone. No one will have to worry about me anymore.

Lucas is not the only reason though. Yes, he is the reason why I became depressed but I stayed depressed. It's nobody's fault for why I killed myself. So please don't blame anyone. I know you and I know you probably already freaked out on Lucas and that's okay but don't completely blame him. He didn't know I was going to do this.

Also know that nobody could have stopped me. I've had this planned out for awhile now and I was going to go through with it no matter what. Don't blame yourself; you couldn't have done anything.

I have a feeling you're the one who found me...and I'm sorry you had to. I'm sorry all of this had to happen.

Ohh and if you're confused on why One Direction might be there, I gave Paul a letter to give to the boys when I was at their concert.

Listen to me okay? I don't want this to change anything. I want you to keep on living your life. Keep on running! And never give up.

I love you so much, Alex.

Love,

Paige

I put the letter down that's now covered in my tears and wipe my eyes. I hear footsteps in the hall and look up to find Harry leaning in the doorway.

"Was this her room?" He asks me quietly and I nod.

"Why don't we go downstairs okay?" He says and I nod again.

I stand up, grab the letters, and walk over to him and give him a weak smile before walking downstairs, him following. We go to the family room where all the other boys are watching tv.

Harry and I sit down on the couch together as the other boys look at us.

"I'm Alexandra but everyone calls me Alex." I mumble.

They all smile at me and say hi back. "I really appreciate you all coming. Paige really loved you boys." I say, holding back tears when I say her name.

Before they can respond, the doorbell rings. "I'll get it." Harry says and walks out of the room.

A few seconds later he reappears with Nathan behind him who's a complete mess. I get up off the couch and walk over to him and hug him tightly.

"I miss her so much." He whispers in my ear making the tears spill out of my eyes.

"Me too." I say and pull away.

"Umm Nathan, this is Harry, Liam, Zayn, Louis, and Niall. Boys, this is Nathan. Paige's...umm...friend." I say and sit back down on the couch with Nathan next to me.

"Paige wrote these letters. She gave one to the boys, me, you, Lucas, Rae, and Rose. I was...wondering if you could give Lucas his." I ask Nathan.

"I might beat the shit out of him but yeah I'll do it." He says with no emotion on his face.

"I should get going. I just stopped by to see how you were doing and if you needed anything." He says and stands up. I stand up behind him and follow him to the front door.

"I still love her more than anything, Alex." Nathan says to me.

"I know you do and I'm sorry all of this happened. Read her letter. It'll make you feel better." I tell him and hug him one last time before he walks outside and climbs into his pick-up truck and drives away.