The Letters

Chapter 11: Letter Five

Rose's P.O.V.

After Rae left I pull out my letter from Paige and begin reading it.

Dear Rose,

This letter is probably one of the hardest, if not the hardest one to right. I miss you already and I haven't even killed myself yet. But it needed to be done and I'm so sorry. The reason I did it the day after we went to the concert was because I wanted to have fun and be happy for one night and I wanted you to remember me that way. I want you to remember me when I was happy, no depressed. I want you to be happy; I need you to be happy, for me.

You probably know why I did it. Mostly because of Lucas and everything that's happened in the past year. But you never left my side and I can't thank you enough for that. You're one of the reasons why I stayed for so long.

We have so many great memories, so many inside jokes. I want you to remember those when you think of me. I want you to remind Rae the good things that we did together, not me dying. Because I'm still there with you. I always will be and I still love you so much.

I don't want you to be mad at Lucas or all the other people who made me so depressed. I know that'll be hard for you but I need you to do it for me. Lucas has been through a lot too and I know people are going to blame my death on him and yes part of the reason why I killed myself was because of him but he's been through enough shit, he doesn't need more.

Never forget that I love you, Rose. We've been through so much shit together. This past year was really hard both of us. I know I promised you countless times that I would stay and I wouldn't kill myself but the pain was too much; I'm so sorry. You're always there for me when I need you and you've helped me so much. I remember you telling me once that one day would hug me so tight that all my broken pieces would stick back together, I want you to remember that because it's true. You will find someone who will love you more than anything and will do anything for you. Rae will obviously have to approve of him though. Speaking of Rae, please take care of her and Nathan for me. I need you to remind them that I love them when they're feeling down. I'm telling them the same thing, that they need to help take care of you too.

I really am so sorry it had to end like this. I love you so much, Rose. Take care of yourself. Please don't miss me too much.

Love, Paige

I put down the let and turn onto my side and shriek when I see Paige sitting there next to me.

"You're dead." I say to her.

"Why does everyone keep pointing that out to me?" She asks but laughs a little.

"Sorry...I...umm...I'm just confused." I say and wipe away the left over tears that we're falling down my face.

"I just missed you...a lot..." She mumbles and looks down.

"I missed you too." I say with a small smile.

"I'm so sorry, Rose." I says and buries her head in her hands.

"Hey, Paige. It's okay. I mean it's not okay but it will be okay. I will be okay. I know why you did it; you went through a lot. More than anyone should have to." I tell her and she looks at me while crying.

"I love you, Rose. I have to go now." Paige whispers with a weak smile.

"I love you too, Paige." I mumble and watch as she disappears in front of my eyes.

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I'm going to start writing the next chapter now I think. So umm Yeahh. Hope you like it :)

-Emmie xx