The Letters

Chapter 16: Just A Dream

I hear voices and someone is holding my hand and there's an annoying beep in the background. What is going on? Where am I? I try to open my eyes but it doesn't work. I let out a small groan and the room goes quiet except for the beeping.

"Paige sweetie? Wake up honey." My mom's voice says to me.

Wake up? But I'm dead aren't i? I try to open my eyes again and it works this time. The first thing I see is a bright light but then when I look around I see both my parents, Alex, Rose, Rae, and Nathan. I blink and stare back at them, confused. Why are they all here? How can they all see me? I thought I was dead.

"Where am I?" I try to say but it just comes out as mumbles of nothing.

My mom stands up and holds a plastic cup of water to my lips helping me sip it slowly. Once I finish it she puts the cup down on a table next to my bed and sits back down.

"Do you know where you are, honey?" My dad asks me and I shake my head no.

"You're at the hospital, Paige. You tried to kill yourself but we got home in time..." My mom says while trying to hold back tears.

Then it all comes back to me. I took the pills and got into my bed when I was drifting off the sleep or death I guess I heard the front door open and meg run upstairs. She must of forgotten something. She came back into my room right as I slipped away. But then I started dreaming I think. It was all a dream. I'm not actually dead...none of that happened....

Before I realize it I'm crying. Alex sees and climbs into my bed with my and let's my cry into her. "I'm so sorry." I mumble over and over again.

"You don't need to say sorry. It's going to be okay." Alex whispers in my ear, promising me.

"We're going to leave you alone with your friends for awhile. If you need us have one of them come and get us." Alex says and kisses the top of my head then motions for my parents to leave as she does the same. Once the door clicks shut they all turn and look at me.

"Jesus Christ Paige! You scared the shit out of us." Rae finally says.

"I'm so sorry. Everything was just building up and I couldn't take it anymore; I couldn't take the pain anymore. It was too much for me and this was the easiest way out of it for me and I wasn't thinking." I try to explain myself.

"It's okay, it's okay. You don't need to explain, we understand. We were just scared we were going to lose you forever and we can't let that happen. We love you, Paige and we're here for you. We're going to help you through this." Rose says and then smiles at my slightly.

I smile back then look at Nathan who's sitting in a chair staring at the ground not saying a word. Rose and Rae must have seen my look at him because Rae says, "We'll leave you two alone but this conversation isn't over. We still have a lot to talk about." They both give me a hug before leaving Nathan and I.

"Nathan.....I'm sorry....." I whisper to him making him look up at me.

"Don't say that. Please don't say that because I'm not going to say it's okay because it's not okay. It's not okay at all. I almost lost you forever! I can't have that happen, Paige. I don't think you understand how much I care about you and how much I need you in my life. You don't understand the affect you have on me." Nathan says but he's standing up and pacing the room back and forth.

This time I do notice the tears but don't move to wipe them away. I just sit there watching him not knowing what to say. He finally looks back and me and stops walking. He sees me crying and walks over to the side of my bed. He kicks off his shoes and climbs into bed with me, under the sheets. I instantly move closer to him and snuggle up to his side.

"I didn't want to feel pain anymore. But now I know that I need you too, more than ever and I don't want to lose you too; I can't lose you. I promise you that you won't lose me. I'm not going anywhere." I tell him while looking up at him.

I feel something wet fall from his face and onto my face. He quickly wipes at his eyes but that doesn't hide the fact that he's crying. "Be my girlfriend."

"What?" I ask.

"I want you to be my girlfriend. I want you to be mine. I want everyone to know that you're mine and only mine. I know I said I didn't want to put a label on it but I want to now." He says and looks down at me.

"Yes." I simply say.

Nathan leans down and presses his lips against mine, gently, like if he presses any harder he'll break me. I slide my hand behind his neck and push him closer to me, making him kiss me harder. Our lips move in sync for a few minutes until I can't breathe anymore and have to pull away. I stare back at him breathlessly and kiss his cheek before snuggling my head into his chest.

"I love you so much, Nathan and I don't want you to ever forget that but if you do I'll be here to remind you, forever." I tell him.

"I love you too, Paige, forever." Nathan says and kisses the top of my head.

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Well....this is the last official chapter. I just have the epilogue left. I really hope you all liked this because I really liked writing this.

I just wanted to tell you that this is based on a true story, well some of the events are. All the characters in here are real people in my life but I didn't use their real names. Paige was based off of me, no I didn't try to kill myself but everything that happened with "Lucas" happened in real life. Now I'm not telling you all of this to get sympathy because that's not what I want at all. I want you all to know that you need to be careful. Sexting is not safe and I know you get told that by everybody but it's true. Even if you're not forced to send pictures and you just do it because you want to, it's not safe. If the person you sent them to gets mad at you or you get in a fight with them you don't know what will happen to those pictures. I just want you all to be careful and think before you act. If someone does try to force you go to an adult as soon as possible. It'll make a big differences.

Anyways, I love you all so much. I hope you liked it!!

The epilogue will hopefully be posted some time early this week.

-Emmie xx