Teenage dreams [discontinued]

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I really felt like skipping school today. I woke up at 3 since I couldn't sleep. I can just tell mum that I'm sick. She'll believe me.

But exams are coming. I don't want to flunk everything.

But he's going to be in school.

Ergh. I got up and took a cold shower. I read my book, hoping it will tire me so that I could sleep. But it didn't. It was already 5 and mom woke up, shocked to see me reading. "Kris. Are you alright?" She asked. I nodded in reply and she went to take a bath. I changed into a white top with skinny jeans and packed my bag. I was making a simple sandwich for breakfast and recess when my phone rang.

Bitchface: I'm really really sorry Kristine. Can we please meet up now? Outside school?

Well that bitch better shut up. My phone rang again.

Bitchface: I know you read my message. I'll be waiting.

What can I do? I prepared mum's breakfast and left a short note.

Mum I'm left house early. Here's your breakfast.
-Kris

And I left the house for school. I saw Jeremy and the boys at the school gate. I'm surprised Jeremy's up so early. He was wearing a black top with jeans and converse sneakers. Jax and Axel wore similar clothes that they wore yesterday. I could see the tattoo peaking out from Axel's shirt again. "Kristine!" Jeremy greeted me when I approached them. I didn't acknowledge.

"I'm sorry." Axel apologised. I didn't say anything. I've been staring at the lamppost on my left the whole time. Staring helps me not cry.

"Can...can you tell me what history you meant." Jeremy asked.

"Fuck off." I swore, "I'm not here to talk to you." I strode into the school, only to be stopped, once again, by Jeremy.

"We're your new friends. At least tell us? So we can help you." He sort of pleaded.

"I'm none of your friends and you all will never be able to help me with whatever problems I have." I sounded mean.

"Please?" He said the 'magic word'.

"Yeah come on Kristine," Axel came foward, "I'm sorry ok? Just share your problems with us."

Someone put a hand on my shoulder and I turned. Jax was smiling at me. "Fine." I muttered.

"Get into the school guys!" Jeremy said.

"But they're not from our school." I was going to say until I looked at the 2 new boys. They were both carrying school bags. What?

We went to our class and I sat at my original spot while Jeremy sat in his. The other 2 sat on the empty seats beside each if us.. "Tell us." Jeremy urged.

"Ok but before that, when did you 2 join our school?" I asked.

"Since...today?" Jax replied. I nodded to say 'oh'.

"So?" Jeremy urged again.

"Can you not rush me? I can change my mind anytime." I hissed at him. He kept quiet.

"When I was 14, I had a boyfriend of the same age." I started.

"Oh so you do have a boyfriend." Axel muttered.

"Yes I do," I glared at him for interrupting me, "But that was 2 years ago. I met him in school and he was almost perfect. I loved his eye colour. It was black. I was really happy being with him but then on my 15th birthday, I found out that he was cheating on me. We had an arrangement. On my 15th birthday, we would meet up at the place we had our first mini date, which is in the park. He didn't tell me he was cheating on me. I guess he was just unlucky. His other girlfriend, also from our school, was in the park at the same time. She saw him with me and was like, "Who's this?" I obviously expected him to proudly say "my girlfriend" but he didn't. He said, "Oh. This is Kristine, my best friend." He looked very nervous. I tried being calm and not piss out so I asked him who she was. At least he said "friend from another class". The look on the other girl's face told me everything I needed to know. I just slapped him and left. At home, I found out that he wasn't only cheating on me with her. He was with another 2 girls. But both from another school. I was so pissed at him...he didn't even come looking for me after that incident." I wiped my tears away, a little embarrassed for tearing up in front of 3 boys.

"Sorry...anyway," I sniffed, "It's not that I don't have a boyfriend. I rejected everyone. I don't trust boys anymore. No offence to you all...I..." I wiped more tears away. Jax, who was sitting beside me, took my right hand and gave it a little squeeze. I smiled at him.

"You don't have to continue if you don't want to." Jax said softly. I wiped my tears away again.

"It's fine. I'm already done anyway." I whispered.

"I'm sorry for what I said yesterday." Jeremy told me. I shook my head, telling him it's fine. I went to the toilet to was up. I surprisingly felt so much better after telling someone about my painful past.

Some people might be like, "Oh it's so cliché. That's what happens to most people", well fuck all of them cause it's my life and my feelings. Wait till you experience that yourself. I came back from the toilet, they boys still where they were, talking about something quietly. The classroom was already filling up. I sat down and looked at them.

"Now what's wrong with you all?" I smiled, punching Jax lightly at his arm.

"Don't need to be so strong all the time." Jax whispered to me. Yeah, I still felt like crying but that's one reason I went to the toilet, to stop crying. I bit my bottom lip, which was already quivering.

"Let it out girl, we don't mind." Axel said. Jax side hugged me and I couldn't stand it anymore. I literally let it out. I buried my face into his shoulder and sobbed. I'll apologise later for wetting his uniform.

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