Girl of Never (Chat MD Series #4)

Day 150

(Jia's journal)

I love you.

I dreamt of it again. His voice telling me those words.

Don't die.

I don't know what to make of it. Sometimes I wake up feeling as if my hand have been held. As if, my hair have been stroked... familiarly. But he's not there whenever I wake up.

He wasn't there when I first opened my eyes. I wait for him, everyday... but he doesn't show up.

I had a mild concussion, a few broken ribs, and an injured knee. The doctors said that I would be here in two to three months. Sina Auntie ang nagisingan ko at isang doktor na hindi naman nagpakilala. Family friend daw, sabi nina Auntie.

Yung accident naman, iniimbestigahan nila. But Auntie said, that I shouldn't worry about it. Sila na raw ang bahala.

In the last five days, nakadalaw na lahat ng kaibigan ni Harry-sina JT, Hannah, Jen, at kahit si Helga. Maingat silang makipag-usap sa'kin. Hindi nababanggit si Harry. Hindi ko rin itinatanong.

My knee hurts, my rib hurts, and my head hurts... but nothing will compare to the pain inside my heart.

Naaksidente na ako at lahat, wala pa rin siya. Can't he come see me, kahit bilang kaibigan lang?

At bakit naaksidente na ako at lahat, hinihintay ko pa rin siya?

Ang kulit ng pag-ibig na 'to.

Pero New Year na mamaya. I should start anew.

The first thing to do, is to stop reading his mails to Neah. Then, to stop thinking about him. Then, to stop feeling anything for him.

Then, to just stop.

I should just stop.