Mixed Thoughts

Jealousy :/

The jealousy overwhelms me

I shouldn't feel this way but I do

but you reach out to stroke her hair

and god how I want to slap your hand away

The acid bubbling through my raging veins

tearing me apart slowly, its slime spitting out in my words

hateful words I've said to you due to my cowardly insecurities

and its wrong for me to want you to myself

but though you're not mine , the monster inside

would rather kill you myself than to see you with somebody else 

and my cold winds blow and the anger washes over me

Don't you dare fucking touch her, I whisper, Don't you fucking dare

but you hold her close and I blow up into little pieces

But you're too far gone to care about what I have become

I've become a Rugaru, ready to ripyou to shreds and eat up all of your emotions

but I could never again lay a hand on you after all I have already done

and it is wrong of me to want to hurt you more

but when you touch her, the green monster takes over

It wants to kidnap you, and force you to watch

as I  tear her pure silken soul out of her sweet frame

and it is wrong of me to want to turn her against you

The jealousy I have turns me into a monster

and it drove you far far away to a place far far away from me

and the monsters I have chase you down, howling for your blood

and it is wrong for me to want you to come back

and it is wrong for me to feel the way I feel, the way I am

But I'm always wrong, I realize

and the acidic monster inside somes out to play once again