Mixed Thoughts

The New Introduction

Many things have changed

Things people may see as no change at all

But they're ignorant

They see facts as if they were real instead of a smart person's opinion

They hunger with pains in their tummies

They tell me I'm pale and they do not and never will realize why

There is a place where my heart will always lie

But I still remain caught up in the left side

And I've lost my voice and I can never sing a song anymore

This game never ends

I laugh as I pretend to have friends

But I'm coughing from the flames the water in the air brings about

Connections lost in the cross fire but I'm still breathing

Running around with a smile on my face

For once I am free

I can run without anyone looking for me

At least for a little while

I can squeeze until my emotions run blank

I can live dangerously once again

But it all comes with a price

And my heart is in two halves but will never think twice

Sanity is calm but insanity is even more calm

It's the words you don't say that define you

The ones you do lie and label you

It's proof that you're normal you know

Silence is my best friend

I lay out the cards but the colors are raw and no one could understand

Because I won't let them

And I lash out because this is tug-of war

And I'm the whore who dared say "Tag, you're it!"

I play nice until the gravity lies in reverse and the truth hurts

So I'll make the truth worse

Because you don't want to admit things because you don't believe them

It's because you're all pretend and make fun of your own friends

It's a twisted reality I breathe

I don't hate but I love things underneath because it keeps me on my feet

Keeps me running when things try to weaken me

And I lay around without a tear because I hate to be defined by things

It's a Twisted Introduction of a Fatal Reality

And you say it's all about you

But it's true to blame me