The Real Me

It's hard to ignore the puppy!

(A/N:this cover is made by my lovely friend @lunathestars :)

The flame of anger,bright and brief,sharpens the barn of love.
-Walter Savage Landor.

Rose's pov

Starting from today I won't let Jay effect me anymore,I'll ignore him.I have to do that in order to save my self from more destruction.I know he has done nothing to prove that I can't trust him but how can I trust him?how can I trust any man?

I have a bad experience with them and I don't want to end up like how I did the last three times.

My heart has been tossed around to many times and today it exists but in a shattered form but still the pieces are all here and if I let it fall in one more time the pieces of my heart are going to get lost.

If I were the old me I would've probably have given any guy a chance but I'm not the same.Mum is right I'm not her daughter.I'm someone much more powerful that is able to stand up for herself,and frankly I don't even want the old 'Rose' back.I was stupid and naive to believe him,believe them ,love them when they all left me,not just left me but broke me shattered me and so skillfully threw a blow at me that I didn't even see it coming.

I don't know what mum and Dove see in her,she was just a weakling,a push over,who couldn't have lived in this cruel world filled with people who hate her just because she's herself.

I sat in my seat,next to Jay completing pages of 11-13,trying to ignore his presence but how could I?It was too hard when he was...

"Rose"he whined,poking my arm.
"Rose"and poke"Rose"poke.

"Rose are you ignoring me?"he asked clueless,if only you know Jay,why?

"No I'm not."I lied.

"Then why aren't you talking to me?Are you mad that I texted you last night?"He look so cut-No he looked like...Uggh I can't even think of something bad when he looks so cute!There I said it.

I just want to kiss him now-wait what?! No I don't I hate him,ok maybe I don't hate him but I still despise him,he's a man after all I can't trust him,not right now.

"No I'm just tired"I wearily sighed.

"oh okay"he nodded.

The bell rang soon afterwards.I was about to get up when Mr Carter announced that there is a test on Friday.Great!(note the sarcasm).

I walked out of class trying to get away from Jay.Avoiding Jay was more harder than I thought but I know it will be all worth it.

Lunch break

"Hey Rose"I looked up from my nuggets to find Jay staring intently at me.For a few moments we were locked in gaze but I was first to snap out.

"Can I sit here?"he asked me.

"Since when do you start to ask?"he opened his mouth to say some thing but I cut him off"never mind I don't actually care".

He sat down next to me,way to close,our thigh was rubbing against each other.A jolt of electricity passed through me and a moved away from him only to have him scoot closer to me.

I kept moving away and he came closer to me and finally the bench ended and I was stuck with him this close to me,feeling uncomfortable I got up and he grabbed my wrists to stop me.

I eyed his hand and he immediately let go,I wasn't angry actually don't know what I felt."please sit down"his eyes pleaded.

I sat down and began eating again...

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End of chapter 16.I know it was boring chapter but the next chapter is going to be better.plz no hurtful comments.
Thankyou!

Love,
AuzaFatima!!