The Real Me

Life is complicated!

"If I ever do something wrong I expect you to forgive me, for I do make mistakes.I am no saint I'm just human after all."
-Me!

Rose's pov.

For the past few days I felt like I was on an emotional rollercoaster ride.

After you know the 'incident', Jay texted me—telling me how sorry he was not because he kissed me-No-but because he kissed me without my consent.He said that he didn't regret any of it.Some how that made me feel both sacred and pleased.Scared, that he might just be playing with me and pleased because well just because.

I still couldn't wrap my finger around the fact that I,Rosetta Carlson, had fallen in love, ironic isn't it? I realised the fact that I had indeed fallen deeply when his lips met mine.

Oh the kiss.

The kiss left me dazed and wanting for more.Although I didn't kiss him back—which I strongly regret—yet it was perfect.It was exactly the type of kiss you would read in stories with all butterflies and tingles—guess that cliche scene does exist in real life.

So as I was saying an emotional rollercoaster ride, from time to time I had a sudden urge to go to him and kiss the hell out of him but then I wouldn't, frightened by the fact that the kiss didn't hold as much significance for him as it did for me.

Of course it held importance for him you idiot, he asked you out this Friday!

Oh did I mention that he asked me out.Yeah well he texted me, a day after you-know-what.

Douche bag: Rose I know you don't want to see me or even talk to me, but please Rose I need to know if there is some hope for 'us'.Rose if you would come to the dance this Friday, I would get my answer and if you don't then I guess he won.

See this is what I get confused about! What does he mean by 'he won'? Did he bet with someone to make me fall for him?Was it a dare?

Well I have to make a decision quick wether to go or not since today is Friday.I plopped down on my bed and sprawled like star fish.

I let out a heavy sigh as I tapped the play button on my phone and I felt as if my ears were about to bleed when 'Happy' by pharllel Williams started to play on full volume.There wasn't anything happy about this situation.I lowered the volume by pressing the lower half of the volume button on the right side of my phone.

I scrolled through my library and tapped on 'We don't talk anymore' by Charlie Puth ft. Selena Gomez.The music started playing through my ear phones.

We don't talk anymore
We don't talk anymore
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don't laugh anymore
What was all of it before
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do

I've heard you found the one you've been looking
You've been looking for
I guess I should've known that wasn't me
Cause all this time I still wonder
Why I can't move on
Just the way you did so easily

Don't wanna know kinda dress you're wearing tonight
If he's holding on to you so tight the way I did before
I overdosed
Should've known your love was a gam-

Before he could finish his verse someone plugged out the earphones from my ears.

"Hey!"I sat up, trying to snatch my phone accessories back from the spawn of devil,grinning like a cheshire cat.I glared at Dove.