CHAPTER 9
She scrambled to cover herself with the blankets. "Eden, weren't you the one who was talking about knocking and stuff?"
I grinned at her. "So you were listening? Whatever, get ready, we're leaving and River isn't coming. I'm gonna go get Arion, you guys pack your stuff."
I ran out the door and ran to Arion's room. I pounded on the door but he didn't answer. As I opened the door, I smelt blood and then I saw his bed. I couldn't even tell what the original color was.
The windows were open and everything was torn and thrown around the room. I backed out and ran to my room. Thankfully River was gone so I could pack the few clothes I had and my knives.
As I crossed the hall to check on Jennifer and Drex, I could tell they weren't packing and Colton hadn't because I hadn't helped him.
I looked out a window and held my necklace in my hand. I could leave and they wouldn't know until at least tomorrow. I could leave and my life would continue on, I'd just be stronger and better and I wouldn't have to worry about them.
I started walking out, no one said a thing as I ran out of the building. As soon as I had passed the first tree in the woods I started to jog, then run. The tears fell down my face.
It hurt to know I had just left. I left them, the ones who loved me since I was a child. The tears fell harder, but I kept going.
When I had to be a good distance away from them, I fell against a tree, my sobs echoing through the woods.
I wasn't invincible, I had my point of breaking and this was it. I screamed into the wind, knowing no one would hear me. I pulled my knife from its sheath and immediately stopped crying.
I threw it and it hit it's mark, the tree in front of me. I threw another and another until I had nothing left to throw. I don't know how it happened, but the knives were back in my hand and I was smiling before I turned and walked away.
But the pain hit my heart again and the love I had felt for River, came back. I shoved the feeling back into the void that it had come from. Love wasn't real, I knew that. It was a word nothing more. So why was it so hard to forget him? He was a Wolf, he could've hurt me.
But he didn't.
He could've just been playing with my feelings.
And if he wasn't?
River could've just been trying to take down the resistance.
That's a lot of "could'ves", Eden.
Great, now I was talking to myself. I've gone psycho.
I continued walking, but he slipped into my mind again. He trusted me and I just left him there. I left them all. Could I make it out here?
I wanted to turn around, admit defeat. My knifes were digging into my skin and there was a trail of blood behind me.
"I give," I whispered. "I freaking give!"
"Eden?"
The sound of footsteps crunching on the cold snow. I kept walking forward. It was almost an impulse. I didn't want to be found, but I didn't want to stay out here either.
I tightened my grip on the knives and I could feel the blood dripping off of my hand.
The person got closer and closer. "Eden, stop." They grabbed my shoulders and forced me to turn to face them, taking the knives from my hands.
