don't think they know. ii

One.

    I stepped off the stage, giving all my backup dancers high fives. Performing on the BET awards and receiving five awards,  I'm on a roll. Ever since being signed I've been hottest singer, rapper, and a little acting. Life is treating me well and I can't even complain. I don't need anything but god, family, and my fans. Relationships? I haven't had a girlfriend ever since Zonnique. I've had a few miscellaneous one night stands but no commitment. I don't need another useless female in my life.

I got dressed in a gray adidas sweatpants along with a hoodie. My driver was waiting outside so I said my goodbyes then headed out.

"Wassup Joe," I dapped my driver then plopped down in the backseat. He gave me the usual head nod and started the truck back up.

I looked down at my phone and clicked onto twitter. I'm always on here talking to fans or networking. I logged onto millions of notifications. It's very overwhelming but this is my life now. Being the Chris Brown. I clicked on the tweer button and typed; great show tonight, heading home to rest. love you #teambreezy ♥ goodnight y'all!

   They tweeted back with all kinds of comments making me smile. I may have some of the craziest fans ever. Joe stopped in front of my hidden condo ten minutes later. My security guards were always alert so I hopped out and unlocked the gates.

I walked inside my empty home, setting all my stuff down. The house was spotless from the maids cleaning everything. I never had to clean nor cook anything. I wasn't used to this because my mother raised me to take care of myself. I shrugged then opened the fridge. Left over lasagna. I heated some up then devoured it.

My loud alarm clock awakened me from my peaceful sleep. I deal with this bullshit every morning. I shut off the annoying alarm and groaned loudly. As I lazily got out of bed, my iPhone began buzzing vigorously. I answered because it was my manager, Carolyn also known as Lyn.

"CHRISTOPHER! You have a meeting discussing your new video Love More, we need to find your leading lady. So get dressed and hurry down to Greystone." She informed sounding happy as usual. I liked Lyn. She is organized and aware at all times.

"Yes ma'am."

"I'll have your latte and breakfast sandwich when you arrive."

I grinned, "Thanks Lyn!"

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We sat in the office discussing this video; well they were. I really zoned all them out because this was boring me to death. Suddenly my phone beeped notifying me I had a text message. The caller id read: Meg. I raised an eyebrow and opened up the text. She rarely texts me because she's always working, or taking care of her mom.

Meg- Morning brownie :3 ♥

Sent- GM dimples :p

Meg- I saw you on TV last night! you slaaayed boy.

Sent- Lmao you know how I do.

Meg- Don't boost >_>

   Before I could respond I heard: "What about video girls?" See that's exactly why I came here. I need to pick my leading lady, it's only right.

"Chris we have three options... pick one!" Lyn said showing three photos on the projector.

My eyes traveled all over the three females. All them were bad as hell but the one in the middle- yes. She had soft looking caramel skin, almond shaped eyes, nice thick body and blonde hair. The photo she took was provocative but I'm damn sure not complaining. She only had on white panties, nothing more. Her chest covered with her arm as he sat propped on her knees.

"Definitely shorty in the middle, that ass-"

"Okaaaay... we'll contact her and set up for the videoshoot on Saturday!"

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Zonnique

   Cam had just left for work, so it was me and my baby boy. I sat him in the warm bath water with lots of bubbles. Kaden giggled, playing with his race cars in the water. I couldn't help but sigh. He looks exactly like Christopher. The eyes, lips, skin complexion and that laugh. I shook my head while washed him up. It breaks my heart because Kaden doesn't call Cam 'da da' or whatever. He says 'cam cam'. Cam always asks why but I can't even answer him. I wrapped a towel around Kaden and carried him into his room. While I lotioned him down I couldn't help but listen to him.

"Ma!"

"Yes Kaden?" I answered, putting on his sweatsuit.

He always had my phone and he'd go through my pictures. "Who?" He pointed to a photo of Chris. Wait- I could've swore I deleted that shit.

"Who!" Kaden repeated with a little annoyance.

"Kaden, stop all that yelling." I avoided his question and carried him downstairs. I made sure I deleted every memory of Chris. If I ever saw him again I don't know what I would do or say.

   I sat Kaden in his high chair and began to start breakfast. Ten minutes later, my phone rang and it was an unfamiliar number. I held the phone on my shoulder cooking eggs.

"Hi may I speak to Zonnique Pullins better brown as Diamond?" A female voice asked catching me off guard.

I cleared my throat before speaking, "This is she...

"I'm Carolyn Smith, I manage Chris Brown and we're hoping to meet up with you." She said with hope evident in her voice. I laughed cutting off the stove and making Kaden's plate.

"You're joking right?"

Carolyn paused before speaking. "Pardon me?"

"I'd never work with Chris Brown or whoever. So thanks for the offer but no thanks!" I rolled my eyes and clicked the end button.

I wish I would catch myself doing anything with him. Chris had to tell her to call. So he's trying to slide his way back in? No I'm not having it.

Two hours later

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO DO IT JOAN?" I yelled slamming my hands down on the table. She's basically telling me I have no choice but to work with Chris.

"Zonnique, you're not popping how you used to be honey. This could be you're next big break- Famous Vixen in Breezy's music video..." Joan said dreamingly. I gagged and sipped my Starbucks cappuccino.

This is complete bullshit. I have absolutely no say so and that's not fair. Joan is right about one thing; I'm not popping. I don't strip alot so I model part time. I've been in a couple videos but it's not enough. "So what do I have to do in this video?"

"The song is very party going and dancy. So I need you to go to dance rehearsals three days before the shoot. Chris will also be there-"

"Noooo. I don't want to see him, like ever. Joan you know how I feel about that guy.." I pouted shaking my head.

She slightly rolled her eyes before getting up. "Zonnique be at dance rehearsals at nine o'clock tomorrow. If not; kiss your career goodbye."

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Is my cover that bad? I cannot make these fancy little shits with all that cropping, etc. I do everythinnnng from my phone ~_~