don't think they know. ii

Twelve.

Zonnique

I continued crying, throwing glasses and breaking anything I could find. It feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. Cam said: its over. No it can't be over, not like this. Just a couple days ago he begged me not to leave him but all of a sudden he has a change of heart. I know I love Chris but this is just too much I can't deal. I need someone right now. My knees were up to my chest and I hid my head down. A whole four hours I've been crying which is only making things worse. I sniffled, looking up as I felt a touch. It was Kaden. He frowned, hugging my neck.

"Dwon't cry mommy."

I held him him closer and weakly smiled, then held his face in my hands. "Kaden, we're going to be away for a little while okay?"

He wrinkled his face shaking his head no. "No daddy?"

"No daddy isn't coming, or Cam Cam. Just me and you dimple. "

"Uuuh why?"

"Because mommy said so now grab your toys and lets go," I said getting up off the bed. I put on my boots along with my jean jacket. I slid on my dark shades then walked out the hotel room with Kaden trailing behind.

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    Brooke squealed, hugging Kaden tightly. He just starred at her then sighed. He's had this little attitude since earlier but whatever. Since I'm not with Cam anymore, I have no place to stay. Brooke and I have been talking for awhile and she said I could stay here. She showed me to my new room which was kinda small but it'll do. I sat the bags down then sat down on the bed, looking around. The room had cream colored walls, mahogany furniture and a flat screen tv. Brooke had a two bedroom apartment in Englewood. Kinda like the projects. Aunt Kim kicked her out as well- why? Brooke ended up having a baby as well. A babygirl named Aaliyah. She's almost three just like Kaden.

"So Chris Brown is ya baby daddy?" Brooke asked holding Aaliyah on her lap.

I played with Kaden's fro, nodding. "Girl he's the same guy I dated in highschool."

"Buuut he's an superstar now. Like everyone knows who he is!"

"True but I see past all that Bee. He has changed a little. He's way more assertive with me..."

She smirked. "Y'all official now huh?" I scoffed shaking my head no.

"It's kinda his fault I'm not with Cameron. All his seducing finally got me in trouble. Honestly I don't know if I want him nomore," I frowned.

Brooke sucked her teeth. "Zonnique you're just confused girl. You love both guys and you want them both. But it doesn't work like that boo." Dammit.

Why is she always right?  I want Christopher and Cameron but I've already lost one. Love can be so stupid sometimes!

"Maybe I just need to focus on myself and Kaden. Love just isn't worth all this.."

"Well do whatchu feel is right Nique. I'm always gonna be by ya side no matter what," she said before standing up off the bed and putting Aaliyah on her hip. "You hitting up Onyx tonight?"

"Hell yeah a bitch stilla gotta get paid."

Though Cam had a lot of money, I never asked for anything. I always had my sideline hustle; strip club. I didn't care that I was going against the rules. Stripping is something that excites me and makes me feel free. Since Brooke was watching Kaden for me, I bathed him and dressed him in pajamas. Afterwards I got in my dance attire and wrapped my trenchcoat around myself.

I looked in the mirror, on my tippy toes, applying eye liner. I put red lipstick on then made a kissy face. Perfect. I slipped on my black heels and walked back into the room.

"Mommy, I want my dwaddy." Kaden pouted.

"I'll let you call him tomorrow. Now give mommy a kiss."

He stood up on the bed and kissed my cheek, leaving it a bit wet. I laughed then carried him into the leaving room with Brooke and Liyah. He snuggled up to Brooke as they began watching Toy Story. I said bye to them made my way outside.

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Baby let me put your panties to the side

I'm a make you feel alright'

Cause I'm a give you what you need yeah

Mami you remind me of something,

I don't know what it is,

You remind me of something

you gotta show me

Alright, you remind me of something..

I don't know what it is right now.

You remind me of something

Girl you gotta show me

I stood on the side, counting my money in my hands. So far- four hundred dollars. The thrill is back. It's kind of taking my mind off Chris and Cam right now. As I started to walk off I heard something; well someone. That familiar voice caused my heart to stop.

"Well...well... we meet again baby..."

No. This can't be happening. I turned around to see Shad.