don't think they know. ii

Twenty-one.

8:30pm

"How the fuck are you going to say I'm an irresponsible parent Brooke?" I yelled looking back at her with blood shot red eyes. She held Aaliyah on her hip glaring at him deadly. "Get the fuck out!" "Gladly to bitch, go find your baby daddy skank." I spat walking out with all of my belongings, Kaden's also. Just four hours ago I got the worse new ever. My son is dead. He's never coming back and deep inside it's all my fault. Kaden didn't deserve this. No mother should have to bury her own child.

I drove on the highway, dark shades on my face. I held the steering wheel with one hand and my cigarette in the other. My mind felt over filled with thoughts. It felt like my heart had been ripped from my chest. I wasn't going to be able to wake up every morning seeing his face. The sweet feeling in my soul every time I hear his laugh. His soft cute voice screaming; "Mommy!" It's gone. I'll live the rest of my life blaming myself and hating myself.

The clock read twelve o'clock and I was still driving in my car. I didn't know where I was by this time and my car had ran out of gas. I stopped at a nearby gas station which was vacant and creepy looking. My body still had this numb feeling like I couldn't move. I used my credit card and filled up the tank then made my way back on the road.

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WELCOME TO LAS VEGAS! The big sign read, causing me to stop the car. I literally have been driving for about two days without sleep or any food. I feel light headed and my hands keep shaking. I'm breaking down, banging my head against the steering wheel. "I'm so sorry Kaden! Mommy is so sorry..." I croaked, crying again.

Suddenly my phone began ringing. It had been going off since it happened. I'm pretty sure the media has all the information on Kaden's death and me being a horrible parent. I peeked at the caller identification to see: Cameron. I pressed the answer button and put the phone on speaker. "H-Hello?" "Please tell me it's not true Zonnique!" Cam yelled over the phone causing me jump. I couldn't answer him that's how hard I was sobbing. I could hear him doing the same, knowing the truth. "What happened?" He muttered. "I don't know.. I really don't know Cameron."

"How the hell don't you know Zonnique?!-" I hung up in his face and threw my phone out the window, allowing it to smash into pieces. I don't need everyone telling me something I already know.

Thirty minutes later I pulled up at August's secret beach house, far off the coast. He always told me to come to him whenever I needed him. I pulled up to the speaker, and rolled my window down.

"Name please." A automatic voice system demanded causing me to roll my eyes. I really hate these things. "Zonnique Pullins-" As soon as I said that the gates opened allowing me to drive right through. I pulled up to the driveway and quickly got out the car. The house was beautiful but I didn't care about any of that right now. I knocked on the door hard, screaming his name.

The door opens and I scrunch up my face. Some girl was standing there half naked, with a stank look. She looked like a knock off blac chyna or something. "Who are you?" "Um that's none of your concern, where's August?" I asked crossing my arms. "Aye who at my... Pullins?" His voice made me look up. He quickly moved the girl aside and wrapped his arms around me. "I'm so sorry about little man," August mumbled into my hair. Hearing that made me cry all over again. Every time I think about Kaden all I can do is cry and sob about it.

"You gotta bounce shawty." He said glancing back at the girl. She sucked her teeth shooting me a death glare. "Really Aug? You feeling sympathy for this bitch? She killed her own child!" I snatched away from him and clenched my jaw, walking up to her. Before she could say anything else I punched her right in the mouth. "Don't you ever speak about me or my child! I will fuck you up!"

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My first shower since the whole incident happened and it damn sure felt good. I dug into my suitcase for something to wear. I put on my bra and panties then a pear of sweatpants, my tupac shakur tshirt and some ugg boots. As I sprayed myself with perfume August walks in and looks at me. "You good?" I shake my head no. "I'll never be good August. My son was taken away from me and it's all my fault." I said. I couldn't cry anymore, it made my head hurt. "You can't blame yourself Pullins. You'll never be able to live with yourself. Kaden doesn't want you sitting around crying and acting all crazy. Be strong for baby boy, he'll always be in your heart."

He has a such a way with words. That always helped me alot. I'm still very much so heart broken but I know Kaden is shining down on me. I just miss him already and i hurting so badly. I laid in the swing, starring at a picture of him. He was holding up the peace sign smiling. "My angel... mommy loves you so much." I whispered kissing the photo and sniffling lightly.

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I just wanted to say thanks for all the feedback you guys give on this book. ♥ Rest in peace Kaden. *cries again then flips weave* ANYWAAAYS I'm going to be skipping ahead in the next chapter. I honestly don't ever want to end this book bruh. I'm so attached ;C

I'm not feeling this chapter. but Chris point of view is neeext. yas lawd. ✌ ( like i said before august is only a friend to nique. cx.. for now.. jk! maybe.) ❤