don't think they know. ii

Twenty-four.

January 9th

2:00pm

"Mommy..." His soft voice called bringing chills all over my body. I looked down to see Kaden, dressed in all white and his curls were still the same. "Baby I missed you and I'm so sorry.." I crouched down to his level and caressed his cheeks. "It's not your fault mommy. I thought it water... I wanna be home with you." Kaden sniffled hugging my neck. I cried holding onto him tightly.

"Ms.Pullins!" I snapped my head back up to Valencia, my therapist. August said it'll help out with my constant grieving and mourning over Kaden's death. I have that same dream every night about him and I wake up crying. I'll never get over this- so I don't see how this is going to help. "How are you today, emotionally?" Valencia asked sliding up her black glasses. Valencia was a hispanic woman with big eyes, full lips and curvy assets. She kind of reminded me of Eva Longoria but a lighter version.

"Depressed. I'm depressed everyday, and I drink to relieve it but when morning comes I feel horrible." I said twiddling with my thumbs looking down. "Hm.. Zonnique you may be coming down with a critical depression disorder. You do things that can be harmful but it seems like it's helping. Am I correct?" She inquired and I simply nodded my head. "I suggest you quit with any alcoholic products or drugs. I'm going to proscribe a medicine that you may pick up, once our session is over. Alright?" Valencia handed me a yellow slip with the location of a pharmacy. I starred at her for awhile and folded my hands in my lap. "Are you insinuating that I'm crazy-"

"No no no no! Not at all Zonnique, I've dealt with many patients expiercing the same problem. Truth be told I lost all four of my babies in the same day." Valencia confessed still holding that same composer. I felt bad. I sighed and shook my head in disbelief. "I'm so sorry..." "It's fine sweetie. Let's go over our daily exercises now." She weakly smiled.

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Therapy went great and I feel amazing. I just have to look at the brighter sides of this to cure my 'depression'. After picking up the prescription and medicine, I decided to go out for ice cream. Kaden used to beg me to take him to Coldstone but I never took him. I regret that shit so much now. I parked the car then dug into my purse, pulling out the pills. I took two as required then got out my car.

As I walked inside the sweet smell of sweets smacked my nose. I went to to the line, behind a couple of other people. I watched the mother with three toddlers struggle to keep them calm. The little boy reminded me of Kaden so I smiled and ordered my ice cream. I got cookie dough with rainbow sprinkles then sat at a table, near the window. I dug the spoon into my ice cream and devoured every bit. As minutes past I grew bored so I decided text August, he us my only friend as of now.

Me- hey ^.^

Aug♥- aye what's up? :)

Me- eating ice cream...

Aug♥- without me?

Me- I'll bring you some! lol where are you?

Aug♥- studio, the one on Manchester. come thru.

Me- sure (:

I smiled the finished up my ice cream. I made sure to order him some birthday cake flavored ice cream then I left out. He was at the studio right beside Chris' so I knew exactly where it was. Speaking of him he's been calling but I don't want to talk. He really hurt me and I'm sick of it. All I want is to be happy.

I pulled up to the studio and turnt my car off, before getting out. I walked to the front door which had already opened. Out walks Sevyn with a smile on her face. She looks at me slightly confused expression. I discreetly rolled my eyes, then waved. "Oh hi. Zonnique right?" She giggled sarcastically. Bitches these day. Why does everyone want to try me? "Mhm.."  "I just want to say sorry about your lost. Kaden was such a great kid, just like his dad." Sevyn said before walking off. I mumbled something then went inside the studio.

August was in studio B so I knocked on the door before walking inside. Nobody was there except him. Some song played, causing me to nod into liking. I loved his style. It was just real and something people can relate to. "Oh hey," he smiled causing my cheeks to rise. "Hi I got your ice cream!" I said handing it to him. His eyes lit up then he opened the container. "This is melted." "Sorry.." I innocently smiled.

"It's cool so how was therapy?" August asked gesturing for me to sit beside him on the couch. I sat then took my big coat off. "It actually went better than' expected. She proscribed me some medication or whatever." "That's what's up. I'm proud of you though, your getting stronger every day." He said with a grin. I giggled a bit before nodding, "All because of you." We both began blushing like crazy. I slowly leaned in, planting a small kiss on his lips. His lips are so soft and they taste like candy. I pulled away then covered my mouth. "August I didn't-" He quickly shut me up kissing me again but more forcefully. As we both pulled back I felt butterflies in the pit of my stomach.

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Finished my homework so yeah. /.\

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