don't think they know. ii

Twenty-two.

Chris

January 6th 2014 ( skipped ahead )

12:00pm

It felt ureal. I didn't get to know my son like I supposed to. Those memories I had with him with last a lifetime. I hadn't seen my bottle guy since the birthday party and I talked to him once on the phone. I never got the chance to teach him how to play ball or how to drive. It's all over now and I don't know how to take it. The worse part is I had to find out by watching the news. Zonnique hasn't bothered to visit me in this rehab center nor answer any of my calls. I've been losing my mind in here. I supposedly have anger issues and it's only getting worse. Everyday I wake up angry. Every night I cry thinking about Kaden. I don't think this pain will ever go away. It's been a whole three months since I've been away. No tours, no fans, no family, and no Zonnique. I miss her so much but more than that I miss my son.

It's a whole new year and I cant stop stressing. "Hey Brown, you have a visitor!" The nurse said popping her head in my room. My eyes sort of lit up. "Really?" "Yes so get dressed and hurry to the visitation room." She grinned then left out. Something in my mind is telling me it's Zonnique. I really hope it is because we need to talk. I got dressed in some gray sweatpants, a white tshirt and my oreo 5's. I walked out to the living room area looking around. My eyes landed on her causing my heart pump even faster. She now had her natural brown hair in a bun and her attire wasn't anything spectacular.

"Zonnique?" I called waving my hand in her face. She looked up then stood to her feet, taking off the shades. From redness and puffiness of her eyes I knew she was still grieving. "Chris I'm so sorry.." Zonnique sobbed hugging me. I sighed holding her back. "What happened?" I asked sitting beside her on the plush sofa, leaning back. She shook her head no. "It was a mistake.. he must've got bleach in his mouth or something-"  "Bleach? You had bleach around a three year old?" I cut her off instantly holding back some tears. "I didn't know Christopher! Don't fucking blame me because I've heard it all!" Zonnique raised her voice pointing her finger in my face. "Whatever Zonnique. You were still irresponsible!"

She tilted her head back giving me a "oh really?" type of look. Honestly I was becoming aggravated and annoyed with her. I tapped my foot repeatedly on the hard wooden floors, looking down. "Irresponsible? You fought someone outside of chuckee cheeses on your son's birthday. Let's not forget the dui's and three other assault charges!"

"Stop making this about me, just own up to your shit!" I shouted right back at her. My blood was boiling at this point and I wanted to just throw her into a wall. "Wow Chris... I hope you have a nice fucking life because I damn sure won't be in it." She snarled getting up from the couch, putting her purse over her shoulder. "By the way I fucked your friend, August yeah him. Goodbye!" Zonnique added then walked right out. It felt like a repeat of what happened at the hospital that day. She's never going to change. I don't even know how I feel back in love with her but that ship has sailed. If it wasn't for Kaden I probably wouldn't have put up with her shit. Words can't describe how I feel right now. I've lost my son and the love of my life.

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Just a little something. I got bored and threw it together. ( not edited )

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