International Love. ✈ z.h.

five ~ ❝realization.❞ ✈

Niall

It's been a week since the incident at work with Zayn, and the hype about the both of us hasn't died down yet. We were trending on twitter, instagram, facebook, snapchat; everything that had to do with the two of us was number one on each site. I forgot how powerful both his and I's fanbase could be, and now that they were combining? It was ridiculous.

Louis and Harry hadn't been able to come over for that entire week due to everybody knowing who they were. They were my best friends, of course they had been on the internet just as much as I was. I was alone when I needed my friends now more than ever, and as I lie there in bed I couldn't help but cry. I hadn't made a video in a few days, and the anxiety was starting to build up from getting behind on posting. Youtube was my job besides working at the diner, and if I lost that I would be crushed.

This was all because the two of us had been careless in front of that diner; sometimes I forgot that I was famous, yet I wasn't on the same platform as Zayn. I'd skyrocketed now, reaching over 3 million subscribers and over a million followers on my social media sites. It was extremely overwhelming, and as I sat in the silence I jumped when I heard a knock on my door.

I got up with my blanket wrapped around me and opened it to see Lily there, her long brown hair up in a ponytail as she sent me a small smile. We were friends but not as close as Harry, Louis and I, her sheepish smile telling me that she was aware of that as she held up a plastic bag.

"I got your apartment info from work...I thought you'd need a friend." I smiled, allowing her inside and felt my heart sing when she pulled out chocolate ice cream from said bag. It was nice to have someone at my house, Lily walking to my bedroom and turning on my TV. We sat together on the bed, sharing ice cream together while I started to set up Netflix. As soon as the screen turned on Ellen was playing, Zayn and Perrie being the special guests.

She was leaning into him, huge smile on her face while he tried to mirror it, the tight look on his face looking less than believable as he wrapped an arm around her waist. I watched as Ellen folded her hands, asking Zayn the question I knew everybody that had seen the news about the two of us wanted to know.

"No, Niall and I aren't together; we aren't even friends! I don't hang out with people like him."

That was enough to make me feel like my heart was on fire, the rage burning so deep in my abdomen that I closed my ice cream tub and threw it across the room. Lily jumped in surprise, trying to reach over and calm me down but I wasn't having it. I was upset, his voice filling my head over and over again as I shoved on whatever pair of shoes I could find and leave my apartment.

"Niall! Where are you going?"

"For a walk!" I hissed at Lily, jogging down the stairs and out to the lobby of my apartment complex. They were there, the flashes of their cameras almost blinding as I shoved past them. I didn't care who I hurt; what I did to them was nothing compared to everything that I was feeling. The look on his face as he said it, the way he looked straight at the camera as he said it, as if he knew that I was watching.

It had started to rain, and honestly I didn't care as I felt my steps get heavier from the water that started to drench my entire body. I wished that it would wash away what I was feeling, take away everything that I felt for that stupid Zayn. He was a liar, an A-lister that wanted to take advantage of how I felt about him and his career as a singer.

It didn't make sense; why was I feeling this way when we'd barely known each other? I shouldn't have a reason to feel so hurt; I should take it with a grain of salt. But he was my idol; I looked up to him, felt inspired to write my songs and post them the way that I did now, all because of him. No matter what I did, I just couldn't get him out of my mind. The rain had gotten so bad that I could barely see, squinting my eyes as I tried to keep going. I wanted to be anywhere but home, trying to get out of the area when I saw another flash of light.