International Love. ✈ z.h.

twenty ~ ❝insecurities❞ ✈

Zayn's Pov

Niall almost fell as I ushered him into his apartment, the action making him giggle uncontrollably while I supported him and kicked the door shut behind us.

"Bed time, my little leprechaun." I snickered, ignoring how he groaned at my nickname as I hooked my arm underneath his legs and lifted him up. He gasped at my action and immediately wrapped his arms around my neck, giving me a drunken smile as he pressed his face into my chest. I walked to his bedroom, leaving the lights off while he peeked up towards me. 

"Hi," He mumbled, making me chuckle as I gently placed him on the bed and lie beside him.

"Hi."

"Can you stay with me tonight?" He asked, hand gently tugging at my shirt while I gave him a small smile.

"Of course I can baby." I shrugged off my shirt and boots, leaving my jeans as I wrapped him into my arms and gently ran my fingers up and down his arm. A content sigh left his lips and he soon was fast asleep, breaths even as he curled in even more to me. I smiled; he was still adorable even when he was drunk.

+

I woke up to the sound of something sizzling in the kitchen, Niall absent from my arms as I furrowed my brows and sat up. I couldn't deny that it smelled good, slowly raising from the bed and making my way into the kitchen. He was humming one of my songs, sprinkling salt and pepper on top of the eggs as he stirred them around the pan.

I wrapped my arms around his waist, making him pause for a second before he leaned back into my touch and smiled.

"No hangover?" He shook his head, turning off the heat and putting the spatula down.

"I woke up at four in the morning and I couldn't go back to sleep so, I took some aspirin and decided to make some breakfast for when you woke up."

"Four in the...what time is it babe?"

"Nine thirty." I raised my eyebrows, resting my chin on his shoulder while I sighed.

"I'm sorry I slept in so late. Tired I guess." Not necessarily from taking care of him but, more about work. Soon I'd have to go back to London to talk about my next tour and upcoming album that I haven't even started yet; just lots of stress that I didn't want to burden Niall with.

"I can be a handful when I'm drunk," He laughed, turning his head slightly and pressing a kiss to my cheek. "Thank you for taking care of me. Eggs?"

"Always, love; and yes I'm starving." Although; it'd be nice to confide in somebody.

Niall's Pov

We sat down for breakfast, Zayn lost in thought as he slowly chewed at his eggs and toast. I knew there was a lot on his mind that he hadn't told me, and that he certainly didn't want to think about; it'd be better if he just told me what he was feeling. But I wasn't one to push people so, if I brought it up and he didn't want to talk about it then we wouldn't.

"Zee? You okay?" He sighed, putting his fork down as he leaned against his chair.

"You always know when something is on my mind, don't you?" I smiled, waiting for him to continue as he sighed.

"It's just work that's all; I'll have to go back to London soon to speak to management about my next tour and a new album. An album I haven't even started writing yet so, I don't know, I don't want to leave you and everyone else here and I'm just stressing." I sighed, standing up and moving so that I was seated next to Zayn.

"Take it one step at a time, love. It sounds overwhelming, and I can't say that I understand because well, I'm not a popstar. But I do know what it's like to have more than one task at hand, and you just have to do it all one step at a time." He nodded, leaning his head against my shoulder as he sighed.

"Thanks, Niall. Did you want to go out with everyone? Go to the mall or something?" I nodded, placing a kiss on top of his head as I stood up and placed my plate in the sink.

"I'll shower first; finish breakfast okay?" He nodded, mouth already full as I grabbed a towel on the way to the bathroom. I'm happy that Zayn felt he could share that with me; I can't imagine that kind of stress being placed upon me. He had triple the amount of fans that I had, and he had to work to make sure he didn't let them down, all the while doing what he wanted to do to make him happy.

It was all complicated, and I couldn't help but empathize with him as I stripped down in my bedroom and walked into the bathroom to shower. Just as I started the shower I'd realized that I left my towel on my bed, sighing as I opened the bathroom door and walked out.

"Niall do you have—" Just as I'd reached for my towel Zayn walked in, eyes going wide at my exposed body as his cheeks flushed red and he sputtered. I could feel my own cheeks and neck growing red, panicking as I grabbed the nearest item and threw it at Zayn.

"Get out!" He dodged what I threw—one of my shoes, apparently—and ran out of the room, shutting the door behind him as I ran into the bathroom and hopped into the shower; this time with my towel.

+

Now fully clothed, I walked into the living room where Zayn was sitting, pillow over his lap as he cleared his throat and scratched the back of his neck. I sat a little farther apart than usual, twiddling with my thumbs as one of us waited for the other to speak up and say something.

"I'm sorry I—"

"I'm sorry I—" We both giggled, Zayn gesturing that I go first while I sighed and crossed my legs.

"I'm sorry I threw my shoe at you." He laughed, shaking his head as he waved it off.

"It's okay; I'm sorry I walked in on you. I should've knocked first or something." He was blushing again, and I found the action cute as I sighed. Nobody has ever seen me fully naked besides Shawn, and ever since then I'd been extremely self conscious of who saw my body in it's full glory.

"It wasn't..." I started, trying to find the right words while Zayn patiently waited for me to continue. "It wasn't ugly, was it?" His eyes widened, a look of disbelief on his face as he quickly shook his head.

"No, Niall, never! It was uh, it was quite..." He was turning red again, blushing all the way down to his neck as he avoided eye contact with me. "I had that pillow over my lap for a reason." He mumbled, making me grin as I threw myself into his lap and pressed a kiss to his cheek.

"I adore you Zayn."

a.n.

they're so cute i'm dyin

m xx