International Love. ✈ z.h.

ten ~ ❝phone calls.❞ ✈

Zayn

That phone call with Niall didn't help me get my mind off of him at all. I was hoping that by hearing his voice it would somehow tame this, how should I put it, beast inside of me that just couldn't stop yearning for the blond boy. Obviously he was busy so he couldn't talk with me for as long as I wanted him to but...that didn't matter. What mattered is that ever since I finished my tour things between he and I had only started to escalate, especially since I denied the rumors between the both of us and Perrie was caught with one of her backup dancers at a club.

Of course I didn't care that they were out doing whatever, whether it be actually hooking up or just being friends, but to the rest of the world I should be caring. Perrie was receiving heavy backlash from both fans and management as of right now, and the only thing I could think of was post something to end all of it. I grabbed my phone and brought up twitter, first texting Perrie to reply to everything that I tweeted in the most sarcastic way as possible.

Lol I see how it is

Fuck you too, then. I smiled as I watched my twitter mentions blow up, immediately seeing Perrie respond on her own twitter as well as on her group twitter.

LOL we all know you can't even give me that good of a time.

To all of our mixers; boys always lie! xx Perrie

She texted me after that, all of it being laughing faces before I shut off my social media applications to ignore them. Our management would kill us but fuck it; what's done is done. That was mine and Perrie's way of telling the world that yeah, we're over, and it's time for me to start moving on to somebody that would truly make me happy.

I couldn't stand it anymore; tomorrow I was booking a flight back to LA; I couldn't stand not seeing him anymore. I reached for my suitcase and started to pack my things when my phone rang, Liam's name flashing across the screen as I picked it up.

"What's up?"

"Um, excuse me? Yeah, when were you going to tell me that your boyfriend's friend is the boy I kissed in high school?" I blushed at how Liam referred to Niall, yet I furrowed my brows as I fixed the phone between my shoulder and ear as I stood up straight from leaning over my suitcase.

"What are you talking about?"

"Um, his friend Louis? I saw him in an article yesterday and I recognized him; he's the first boy I ever kissed? The one I told you about when you and I—"

"Yeah yeah, you said we weren't going to talk about that again. Anyways, how was I supposed to know that was the first boy you kissed? I only found out about that when we did the thing!" He was silent on the other end, my brows raising when I realized what he was getting at.

"Liam...don't tell me you happen to have a crush on him."

"Look, I gotta go. I just wanted to ask you that simple question, that's all." Before I could say anything else he hung up, making me roll my eyes as I continued to pack. Despite Liam, I was excited to get back to LA; no matter what people were saying about Niall and I online.

Niall

"Wow, "faggot", not like I haven't heard that one before." I scrolled through my twitter to see a branch of haters had started to form, multiple tags trending including, #ZerrieIsOverParty and #ZerrieBreakup and, can't forget my most favorite: #ZiallIsBeginning. Don't get me wrong I was flattered by the tweets that supported the idea of Zayn and I being in a relationship but...I'd forgotten how much it hurt when people didn't support anything that I did.

"Stop reading that bullshit, you know that's not true," Harry had ripped my phone out of my grasp and placed it on top of the  fridge, making me huff since he knew I couldn't reach with my broken leg. "The last time you let that stuff get to your head I didn't hear from you for a week because you were trying to deal with it on your own. So we're having none of that." I nodded, remembering that time and what I'd put Harry through when I wouldn't answer his calls.

I had to be grateful for him though; he'd had my back since our final years of high school, especially when I was faced with somebody that I'd rather not think about right now. Christ, I hadn't thought of him in what seemed like forever, and before I could let those dark thoughts get to me I was distracted by Harry handing me my guitar.

"You sure you want to do this? I could always do it for you, like I always do." He sent me a reassuring smile; I appreciated the gesture, but if I was going to really start to open up to not only my fans, but myself, I had to do this on my own.

"Yeah, I'm sure. Help me set up my cam while I adjust myself," He nodded, leading me to my bedroom and setting up the camera. I sat down, waiting for Harry to press the record button and then giving me a thumbs up. I nodded, not even beginning with my usual introduction as I went straight into the song.

This video...it was going to change everything, that much I knew. The words that I'd written in the book that I was now singing into the camera; they were meant for him. My fans were smart enough to figure that out, and that alone made me give a small smile to myself as I looked back up towards the camera, that being the signal for Harry as he turned it off.

"That was beautiful, Niall." I only gave him a bigger smile as I hugged him, setting the guitar down and grabbing my laptop while he brought over my camera. Within no time I had downloaded the video to Youtube, my mouse hovering over the "upload" button while I hesitated. Did I really want to do this? I shook my head; of course I did, no way I was going to let myself talk myself out of it.

I clicked the button, watching as it loaded and then finally gave me the notification that it had been uploaded, getting likes within seconds and watching the views rise. Harry gave me a reassuring pat on the back, leaving me to be alone while I sighed and leaned my head back against the foot of my bed.

I closed my eyes, hoping that this song was enough to help not only the entire world, but Zayn realize what I was feeling; and that not any time soon, were those feelings going to change.

a.n.

song above is the one that niall "wrote" :)

happy new years everybody!

also if you play mystic messenger...you'll get the zen reference i put in the first paragraph ;))) LMAO

m xx