If I could talk to my mental disorders I'd probably say "fuck you"
Fuck you for making me feel so ashamed all the time
Fuck you for making me anxious all the time
Fuck you for making me like this
Fuck you for being here
I mean that's a natural response to say to anything or anyone you hate right?
Because the impact they left on me was worse than breaking bones or being ripped apart
No it was excruciating
It was worse than jumping off a building
Although depression makes you think everything will be okay when you hit the bottom
That it will be rainbows and butterflies again
But he forgets to tell you that you'll never see daylight again
Anxiety helps him as well
Telling me that my friends are talking shit about me
That they are embarrassed to be around me
Telling me I'll always be alone
But sometimes I can't help but to listen to her because
Its not the first time someone was embarrassed of my dumb stupid actions
Paranoia, she's a bitch
Always making me feel as though I'm watched
As though something bad is around the corner
Anxiety and Paranoia are sisters
Sometimes I can't tell who is worse
Here comes ADHD and boy does he look like a mess
Making my long legs shake and my fists always clenched
Tick tock tick tock oh my god is that a deer?! Tick tock tick what's 12×9?
Focusing is hard when there's so many things I'm interested in
Hyper, crash, hyper, not focusing!!!
God why won't you leave my head???
PTSD you besides depression are the worst of all
Flashbacks, constant painful flashbacks I don't want to see
I don't want to recall those memories
Trigger warnings should basically be scrawled across my pale skin
Warning: Anything you say may cause a painful flashback/memory. Speak at your own risk. You have been warned
Get out of my head! Get out of my head!
If I could talk to my mental disorders I'd probably say "Fuck you and Get the fuck out of my head! I'm better off living without you!"
~Note: this poem was inspired off of a Buzzfeed video called 'if I could talk to my mental disorder '. I am not saying I have these disorders exactly but what I feel on a daily basis is basically this but could get a lot worse.
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Poems from inside the depths of my head
PoetryPoems and thoughts I think and can't seem to tell anyone without judgement or even belief. These come from the depths of my mind and I apologize if they make you cry.
