Have you ever felt that?
Felt nothing?
So numb that you had no clue how to react?
It was almost as if my feelings just vanished
Never existed
But yet right there
Watching all this play out
It felt as though my heart was...
Well if you even consider the fact it wasn't there
So numb I couldn't hear its beats
Thump thump thumping
None of that was there
Just an organ taking up extra space in this wasteful body
An excuse to forbid myself from believing
That maybe I'm not worthless
I'm not depressed
Im not suicidal
But then again those waves come back
And I go numb
Watching the world pass by while I slowly watch
But then again it could be worse
I could be feeling all those shitty feelings instead
I think I'd rather be numb then feel those things
Cause one day it could completely kill me
And part of me doesn't want that to happen
At least not yet
YOU ARE READING
Poems from inside the depths of my head
PoesiePoems and thoughts I think and can't seem to tell anyone without judgement or even belief. These come from the depths of my mind and I apologize if they make you cry.
