𝟐𝟓 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 → 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐤𝐨𝐤𝐮

day four

my beloved ryuunosuke,

today, i went to the park where you had proposed to me. do you remember? you suddenly knelt down on one knee and brought out a ring from your pocket as i was talking about something and then.. you proposed.

i couldn't be anymore happier. i cried as you expressed your profound love to me. about how much you were grateful to have me in your life. i said yes, of course.

i was glad the people around us didn't judge us for our display of affection but instead, they cheered us on.

i will never forget that day.

back to what i was talking about. i stood there on the very same spot, imagining that you knelt before me, asking me to marry you.. again.

ryuu.. i miss you so much. i miss your wamrth. i miss your touch. i miss the way you used to greet me. 

you know, i envy the couples that i see when i got to the park.. they have kids. they have a family while here i am.

can you still recall that time we talked about having a kid? i wanted to adopt one. i want to feel what having a kid is like. i want to care for someone much younger than i am.

i want to love a kid with the same love i had for you. i wanted a family too.

ryuu, i hope that w̶h̶e̶n̶  if i follow you up there someday.. 

we could have a family. 

someday.

forever yours, atsushi

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EDITED; 4/6/20