𝟐𝟓 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 → 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐤𝐨𝐤𝐮

day twenty-three

my beloved ryuunosuke,

hello, ryuu. time flies by so fast, huh? only two days left.

i still haven't gotten you that christmas gift. don't worry, you'll see it on the twenty-fifth.

i have a question for you. since you probably know what's going to happen, are you mad at me? i hope not.

i'm doing this for a reason and that is for you. i am very thankful to have my friends and co-workers to support me. hiko, kana-san and dazai-san especially.

i am incomplete without you in my life. it's cheesy and gross, but it's what i really feel.

what surprises me though is that hiko and kana-san, along with dazai-san visited me last night. they were very persistent.

i still didn't let them in and just kept the door locked shut. as i do with myself. i only listened to their talks through the door as i mostly just slump against it now. i can't find the courage to face them.

i appreciate their concerns and all the help they've given me, but this is my decision. i think they could understand that but they don't want to give up on me. it makes me wanna tear up.

i could still hear their furious cries telling me to stop what i could've been doing the other day. it went ignored.

i could only hope you aren't that mad at me for this, ryuu.

just hold on little while more, okay?

wait for me, atsushi

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EDITED; 4/9/20