𝟐𝟓 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 → 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐤𝐨𝐤𝐮

day ten-thirteen

my beloved ryuunosuke,

hello, ryuu... i apologize for the lack of letters these past three days. i know i said i quit from my job and that i wouldn't be really busy anymore, but i just had been a little preoccupied making small gifts for my former co-workers.

hiko had helped me cope with your passing and had given me tips on what to do now since i have yet to find a job to earn money and such. he almost seems like a brother to me, really.

i feel bad for distancing myself from my mentor and colleagues. higuchi-san even dropped by to give me the stuff you had left over at your work.

i wanted to make it up to them and apologize for leaving my spot in there. hence i mentioned in the start that i was going to make small apology gifts for them.

i left my previous job because it just kept reminding me of the time we first met.

i sleep a lot more early now, but i still don't eat like i usually do. even after meeting hiko, i stopped going out the house for a while.

as time passed by, hiko and i got close and he sometimes drops by to give me some food that he'd cook whenever he works over in his father's restaurant.

he never really got to stay long as he still has to take care of his sick mother.

i was thinking of what hiko told me when he dropped by yesterday. about how upset you'd be if i followed you up there early.

you're always in my thoughts. i think about doing the craziest things at random times.

sorry this letter was cut short. i just suddenly stop thinking about what to write next because my thoughts always lead up to you.

you make me want to take another shot at love again, even when i know i shouldn't.

i should go now. tomorrow, another letter waits.

good night, atsushi

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EDITED; 4/6/20