Instant | Harry Styles Fanfiction

Chapter 19

'Come here' she spoke softly and pulled me into her arms.

Ari always gave me the best hugs when I was upset.

'Quickly inside, it's freezing outside' she spoke.

'I know, thanks' I half chuckled.

As I entered her house, the warm air swallowed me up and defrosted me. The numb coldness I had been engulfed in now slipped away. I felt my body un-tensing and relaxing as the heat made it's way round my frozen skeleton. Ari tossed me several blankets and a pair of fuzzy slippers, I slipped them onto my swollen feet, and the pain eased slowly. I coated myself in the blankets until I looked like a cocoon. As I warmed myself up Ari popped out of the room and returned moments later, with two steaming mugs of hot chocolate, covered in whipped cream and marshmallows. The heat from the mug felt soothing against my numb fingers.

'Thanks' I mumbled.

'Your welcome' she responded.

'So how are you?' I asked her.

'We both know that it's not me who we need to be asking' she spoke.

I stayed silent, as I knew what was coming and I couldn't find the words to say how I felt.

'So, what happened?' She almost whispered.

I swallowed the lump in my throat.

'I don't know, I really don't know' I squeaked, holding back the tears.

'You were on your date with Harry weren't you'

I nodded.

'So did he upset you or something'

'No, no he did nothing wrong, and that is what makes it so much worse'

'Ok...'

'I had an argument with my mam earlier about telling Harry where I was, and she said that it was time I moved on and we had a big argument about it and I hadn't thought about it for ages or talked about it, and I think it had been playing on my mind all that time and when I was with Harry it hit me, and I broke down and then my brother picked me up and was telling me that I should move on, so I said that he doesn't know how it feels and when I got home I walked here because I couldn't face them'

'Sam, I am so sorry, this has been so hard and I thought you were finally getting over it and I was happy for you'

'So did I, Ari, but obviously not and I feel so bad for Harry because I am messing with his feelings and that is not right'

'Your not doing it on purpose though, and what happened has scared you for life, if it had happened to me I would have been exactly the same'

'I feel like I am on an endless cycle with Harry, that we get along and then I run away with no explanation'

'I know, I think you owe him an explanation at least, but did you know Harry likes a girl who makes him chase her'

'Oh shhh'

'What are you going to do'

'Cry, that's the honest truth it's all I have done since it happened and the last couple of months have been great months where I haven't thought about it'

'I know, we all noticed the change, but it will always be in the back of your mind, I think your family are pushing you too hard, too quick'

'9 months, I think that is a really short period of time, I didn't think I would be thinking about a new relationship till at least 18 months'

'You do always leave a massive gap between them'

'I know, I enjoy being single as much as I do being in a relationship, where as you always seem to be dating someone'