Instant | Harry Styles Fanfiction

Chapter 22

Harry, I- I' I tried to speak, but my mind had gone blank.

'Sam, come here' he spoke.

I looked at him; he looked so calm and caring. He looked nothing how he was perceived in the media. I hated how the media perceived him although I didn't really know him so he could have been like that. They stereotyped him to be a player, a manwhore, a womaniser, a person who goes for one night stands and short term relationships. I barely knew him, but from how he looked right that moment I knew he was none of those things. I had gone from not having a clue who he was, to hating him to falling hard and fast for him in a matter of seconds and I wouldn't have changed it for anything. I had a desire for this boy, for every inch of him. The taste of his breath on my needing lips, his voice rummaging through every vein in my body and his touch sending electricity through every part of me. But I knew his world moved to fast and burned too bright, and I didn't know if I was ready for that. I had treated him like shit, yet there he was offering me comfort and caring for me, when most people would have left me by now, but not Harry.

'No, Harry' I spoke as I felt the tears prick in my eyes.

He stayed silent.

Why did everything always come flooding back when I was with Harry? I always cried when I was with Harry, and I had had enough of it. He had done nothing wrong and here I was turning into a blubbering mess, I had really messed him about and enough was enough.

'I- I have treated you like shit, I have been mean to you, I have given you false hope, I have ran away from you, I have made the media write these awful, untrue things about you, yet you are still here, most people would have left and given up with trying with me, but every time you are nice to me and kind and caring and I just don't understand why' I spoke, biting my cheek to stop myself from crying.

Harry began to walk towards me, and for once I didn't back away.

'Samantha, I never left or gave up because I believe you are worth the chase and the aggro, from the moment I met you I knew there was something special about you, and every time you knocked me down, I got straight back up, but I can't help feel you are scared to be in a relationship with me and I don't understand why?' he spoke so calmly it almost came out as a whisper.

'Harry, I have read all about your relationships, I know about Caroline and Taylor, when I go into a relationship I am committed, not just a fling, your world and my world are very very different I have had a taste of your world and I did not like it, your world would chew me up and spit me out, and my experiences with love haven't been the best and I want to try and again and move on but I am scared that it will happen again because it broke me, completely, I didn't want to eat or sleep or do anything I just wanted to sit there and rot away, someone took all of my feelings and memories and just ripped them out of me and I can't go through it again' I stuttered as I fell to my knees and broke down crying.

'Sam' harry spoke as he rushed over to me.

He dropped to the floor next to me and wrapped his arms around me. I adjusted myself to cuddle into him. He was so warm and soft. He hugged me as if I was delicate china and he was scared that if he squeezed me too hard I would break.

'It's alright Sam'

As the words left his lips for a split second I believed him that everything was alright, because he made me feel safe and that was all I wanted to feel safe and protected. I clutched his top, never wanting to leave his side. I looked up at him, he was staring directly at me calmly and passionately the kind of look every girl dreams of.

'Har-'

'You don't have to'

'B-But I want to'