It's Not How You Start, It's How You Finish

Chapter 11

It was mid March now, I arrived home a month ago and things went back to normal right away. I hadn't told anyone about this pregnancy. I wasn't ready to. I was still shocked that it happened in the first place. It had been since I left Honolulu, that I spoke with Rob. He didn't even bother to text or call since. I had my first appointment with my OBGYN this week and I was a nervous wreck. I have no idea how far along I am. Usually when women go to their first doctor appointment they are around 8 weeks along. So I was assuming that's how far I was too. I wasn't really showing except a little bloat so that was my first clue that I wasn't very far along.

I was contemplating if I should tell Rob about it or not. A part of me says yes, it's his child, he should be given a chance to be a man and show up for it. But the part of me that is hurt by his actions says no don't tell him and keep him in the dark about everything. I decided to text him briefly and let him know. I was going to be fair to him and be the bigger person even if he was a big egotistical asshole.

S- just wanted to tell you that YOUR baby's first appointment is this Thursday. Brigham and Women's hospital. Dr Andrews. 11am. You don't need to be there.

He read the text but never responded. I waited for an hour after I sent that message to see if he would respond but I never even saw the three dots in a bubble pop up. I gave up and went about my day. I had the day off and was looking forward to a little rest anyways.

I had two 12 hour shifts of work then it was the day of my first appointment. My shifts were easy and uneventful. I was nervous but looking forward to getting acquainted with this new doctor. I had a GYN but she refused to deliver babies. She used to but after losing a couple during delivery she decided it wasn't the part of women's health she wanted to continue practicing. So she recommended Dr Ariella Andrews. I read up on her and she seems great. Kinda young. But everyone who reviewed her said she is easy to talk to, great bedside manner and let's the mother choose how she wants things to go (of course within reason).

I also had decided that after this appointment I was going to take a trip home to New York and visit my mom. Jay and Meredith were going to be there anyways since it was his birthday so I figure why not take my two off days and go home.

Once it was time to leave to go to the appointment, I started to panic and shake like I was cold but it was nerves. I looked at myself in the mirror. "I already look different" I thought to myself. "I can do this." 

After a little pep talk in the mirror I finally went out to my car and drove 15 minutes to the hospital.

I checked in and sat so I could face the door. I was silently hoping Rob would show up. I didn't wait long before I heard my name called.

"Samantha Easton?" Asked the nurse. I stood up, set the magazine down and walked towards where she was.

"Samantha can you confirm your birthday?" She asked.

"June 17th"

"Great. I'm Sadie and I'll be your nurse through this pregnancy. And may I ask who you are?" The nurse said as she looked behind me. I gave her a confused look and turned around. Rob. Rob was standing behind me.

"I'm the baby's father and I'd like to be here for the appointment if it's ok with the mother" he said.

I stood there dumbfounded. He had a winter hat on, sunglasses and a heavy ski coat. I wouldn't have recognized him if he hadn't spoken. I had my hands over my mouth as I nodded my head.