one more day

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I always knew that I once had a happy home. I was an only child with  loving, hard-working parents. They were never mean, they would never leave me, they would never harm me.. physically or emotionally. But that was 10 years ago.

10 years ago when I knew exactly who they were.

10 years ago when life was simple and everything was alright.

10 years ago when my father was deployed in Iraq for three years. Those years were rough, trust me. My mom struggled with bills, finding the time to be with me, working day and night just to support the two of us, she struggled everyday. And without my father she was basically a lost puppy. She tried though, she really did. And even when he returned, she never quit trying.

She never quit trying to bring in an extra paycheck every month just to put food on the table since my dad was no longer any help.

She never quit trying to take care of me and my father once he came back from deployment. Because once he did, she and I both knew, he wasn't the same man he once was. 

He began to drink. Heavily. He'd come home night after night after night, lashing out on mum and I during his often fits of rage. She never quit loving him...

Until one day, the violence and cruelty must have been so bad, she resorted to drugs to take away the pain. She tried to hide it from me.. but I saw her, through the small crack in the bathroom door. I watched her inject and snort away all of our money. Never would I have imagined this.. this woman that I considered a God-sent gift, to throw, not only her life, but mine away too. 

This only led to more drinking on my fathers part. Which then proceeded to my mom leaving the house. She'd leave home often, and would even sometimes not come home for weeks at a time. 

I knew that one day, she would never return. But when that day came, that's when the pain and reality really settled in. Of course she was alive, but why would she stay? Just to get kicked around again? I would've left to.. If i had anywhere to go. 

She abandoned me. Left me when i most needed her. Dad was still a wreck but after that time it had gotten 10 times worse.

"You remind me of her.. so. so much Liv." He'd tell me.. as if that made everything okay.. as if that justified his reasonings to why he did what he did. Every night was a waiting game for him to barge in and when he did, there were two possibilities. Yet no matter how long this went on, I never knew which one was worse. But why'd it matter? There was nothing I could do about it anyway. 

You would think that anytime away from home, i'd consider an escape. School for example. But you're wrong. School is just as much hell as home is. The kids were rude, nasty people. I was always the 'weird' or 'emo' or 'scene' chick, the 'attention seeker'. But none of those were true, they just had no idea what the truth was. My only escape was my friend Emily. Now she was a true friend that I could put my full faith in. She was always there when I needed her. Just like now.

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"Hey, Olive, calm down please, everything's gonna be okay." Emily rubbed my back in an attempt to soothe and calm me down. "The kids at school.. they're nobodies. and what they say shouldn't matter to you." oh but it did. "Let them say what they want, you and I both know that they're just stupid, immature cunts that have nothing better to do with their lives."

"Ca-can I stay here tonight?" I couldn't, I absolutely could not deal with my father today. If I even still considered him that. 

She looked up from her phone that I hadn't noticed she'd been on, "Olive, you know that I would love to let you but my mom..."

"I get it." I sighed, lifting myself from her bed, "Thanks for letting me over for a little while." I grabbed my bookbag, heading for her room door.

"I love youuuuuu." she chimed, but never looked up from her phone.

"love you." I nearly mumbled. Time to go home and face the awful reality that is my life.

so part 1. if you read the description you would know that this is just a better version of my imagine from instagram (yikess0s) because i liked it a lot and i want to make it longer, and better. please vote and comment what you thought :)