The Badboy's Daughter

Chapter 17

*Skye's POV*

And this is why I don't drink, I groan waking hardly out of my groggy state.

The memories of yesterday leaving a shiver to release down my spine.

I don't know if I could live with myself if I didn't have Joel in my life. He is my best friend and has always been there for me. I understand where he is coming from, but I can't help what I feel for Alex either. Forgiveness or not.

"Alex?" I say with a dry, raspy breath.

The bedroom was empty, I realise whilst my hands stretched out on the sheets. Sunlight gleamed through the window and I raised a hand to block my fragile eyes, thanks to my intoxicated state.

The clock on the wall read nine-thirty. With the knowledge of that, I shot out of bed allowing my legs to carry me towards Siena's room despite the struggle.

Empty.

My heart began to race and my hands started to shake. I've slept in, I didn't take her to school and now I've lost her.

I let myself sink against the wall, covering my face with my hands. A sob began to escape my lips.

Faintly, the sound of the front door closing into place echoed against the upstairs walls.

"Alex? Is that you?" I rise, wiping my tears ferociously from my eyes.

"Whoah whoah whoah!" Alex says catching me as I finished bounding down the staircase.

"Where's Siena!?" I exclaim, a little out of breath.

"She's at school"

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in.

"I thought I lost her. I thought you left. I thought-"

He silences me by engulfing me in an embrace.

"I'm so sorry. I should have left a note before I left. It was stupid of me and I'll remember to say something next time" He whispers softly, running a hand through my hair.

Next time?

"We need to talk anyway. After breakfast I have some things I need to say. All I ask is that you listen to the end and then I'll let you decide what you want to do or say"

"Okay, lets eat then"

"I picked up a few things from the supermarket. I hope you don't mind"

Alex walked straight to the counter of the kitchen, placing grocery bags on the bench. I entered moments after him, still in shock from the beginning of the morning.

He didn't just pick up a few things. He bought a feast.

This morning has just begun, how can I survive through the rest of the day?

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Alex cooked breakfast. A sight I didn't think I would see. Him cooking, me sitting on a stool entranced by his every move. A sight that soon was replaced by me awkwardly sitting on the lounge in the middle of an extremely awkward silence.

"You said you had something to say? If you don't want to deal with me anymore, you can leave and I'll be fine honestly"

"Skyler, please. Just let me speak"

My lips close and I fiddle with my fingers to relieve a bit of my anxiety.

"First of all I want to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. Four years ago I did a terrible terrible thing. I've been haunted by it ever since. I know that's hard to believe, you are the victim. I understand that. Boy do I understand that. But at the same time, I didn't want to do it"

My entire body stiffens at the past.

"I'm not making an excuse, just know I am so sorry. My dear sweet Siena, she is so beautiful and it is easy to see where it came from. Not from her father that's for sure"

That's not true. Alex you are so beautiful. How can't you see that?

"I will live the rest of my life with the memory of my actions. I will live the rest of my life making it somehow up to you. I will live the rest of my life proving to myself along with you that Siena was a miracle and is far from a mistake. I will live the rest of my life in love with you"

His eyes were beginning to water. He was broken, my poor little broken bad boy.

I pushed myself forward onto the floor in front of him. Kneeling before his seated body, I raised a hand to graze his cheek.

"I am in love with you. I have been since the moment I saw you in the classroom. I will continue to love you until the day I cease to live in this world and as I move into the next world. I promise you here and now, I'm going to marry you"

My hand froze against his cheek.

"I'm going to marry you. I'm going to make love with you. I'm going to give you another child. And I'm going to be the best father to Siena I could ever be. That's all I've ever wanted. I'm not sorry that you are the love of my life. I'm not sorry I get to spend the rest of my life with you, if you decide to let me"

Kiss to tear. Lips to cheek.

"I love you more than the stars in the sky and the grains of sand on the beach"

My poor broken bad boy...

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A/N This is probably my favourite chapter I have ever written. Please leave me a comment with your thoughts and some kind words. Love you all as much as Alex likes Skyler!