His Precious Pearl

Chapter 22

Have you every felt so broken ? I have made a choice and deep in my soul, i know it is the wrong one. But how can i ? I never even gave him a chance ? Okay, at first I did but he blew it. I wish that i could just...... Die......

You wont believe me. At first i was broken because James left me, Now because iam married to him. My whole world is shattered. Nothing ever seemed so difficult in my life. I want leave this world. I dont care at all. What is wrong with me ? I cant expect everything to fall into place.

Amelia looked at the diamond ring placed on her finger. It has been a few days after her engagement. That little diamond ring made her so uncomfortable. She felt as if she was in a trance. She heard a knock on the door.

"Amelia ?" James called. Without turning she answered. "Hello James." She heard him walk towards her. He slowly wrapped his arms around her. She felt some what comfortable in his arms with his rock hard chest pressing against her cheek. She could feel his warm heart beats.

"Are you feeling okay now ?" He asked smiling at her and brushing a few strands of hair from her face. "Yes" She smiled looking into his Hazel eyes. He leaned in and gently kissed her. "I love you Amelia." He whispered.

Amelia had nothing to say. She did not know what to say. "James, I-I" She struggled to find words. She looked down and saw her pale hands trembling. She felt a sharp sting in her heart. She hardly slept in the night. Dark circles were clearly visible under her chocolate brown eyes.

"James I am .... I just ... I ... Umm i can not .. I ..."

"Excuse me sir, your mother is calling her soon to be daughter in law." A shy maid bowed her head and spoke. Amelia was eternally grateful for her helping her out of the mess.

"Yes, yes of course." she looked down and followed the maid leaving James standing, without and answer. She followed the maid and as they neared the garden, she slowly asked the maid. "Why do twists and turns always take place in a steady road ?"

The maid smiled in her shyness and replied "Because without them, the road will be long and dusty without any excitement, Miss"

"Yes but the leave you wearied and confused. They mess up your entire road." she stopped and brushed a tear away from her eye. The young maid sympathetically took Amelia's pale cold hand. "If you do not have a problem, would you like to talk about it, Miss ?"

Amelia looked into The maid's big, innocent, honey colored eyes. The girl must be 17 or 18 years of age, with her strawberry blonde hair pinned up. She was close to her age and looked very amicable and wise despite her innocent appearance.

"Right now, iam sure Ma'am Johnson would be waiting for me. Please meet me at the pavilion." She whispered and went to the rose garden where her soon to be mother in law was waiting, smelling the white roses.

Patricia Johnson's face lit up when Amelia walked towards her. The girl was like an Angel. Her long jet black hair was pinned up in graceful curls. Her big brown eyes filled with innocence like that of a doe's. Her fair skin which looked and felt like satin. She was wearing the beautiful blue dress Patricia had sent her.

Her tiny hands gently brushed the flower patterns on the dress. "Y- I believe you wanted to see me Mother." she looked at Patricia and smiled. "Yes dear. Please, sit down." Patricia smiled and led her to and outdoor tea room.

Amelia poured tea for Patricia and herself. Patricia examined the girl's concentrated face. Her plump lips were applied with a luscious red lipstick and her and her cheeks were patted with a rosy pink blush. But she had terrible dark circles. She looked weak and pale.

"Amelia, darling are you alright ?" Patricia asked, sipping her tea. Amelia looked up at Patricia's concerned face. "Yes mother, Iam fine." she replied looking at her and giving her a warm smile. James had her hazel eyes.

"Amelia, Dear if anything is bothering you, please be free to express yourself." She place her hand on Amelia's. "you don't have to worry about me, Iam fine." she smiled wider at her mother in law. "Alright then." Patricia sipped her tea and watched Amelia staring at the white roses.

"They have such similarity with you, those roses. They are fair, subtle and have a gracefully innocent appearance." Patricia smiled at her. Amelia looked at her and smiled. Patricia slept out a heavy sigh. It seemed in this small tea party, She was doing all the talking and her daughter in law just nodding and smiling.

Amelia was never like this. Her mother and Patricia were very close friends and she remembered the way Amelia used to jump around. Patricia smiled as she remembered how almost every time she used to get scratches and cuts by falling down or tipping over a pot.

James was much older than her. But they never met till Amelia was sixteen years of age. But Patricia wanted Amelia as her daughter in law. She seemed like a perfect match for her son. She remembered Amelia's eyes widen every time Patricia came for a visit. She always got her small gifts.

Amelia looked at her mother in law's face and quickly spoke to get her out of her mind. "How was your day Mother ?" she smiled and sipped her tea. Patricia's face instantly lit up and she gave her a warm motherly smile.

"Splendid, Thank you very much. Amelia Dear, I would like to talk to you about James." Amelia froze. She looked at Patricia with wide eyes. "Yes Mother."

"Dear, firstly i want you to know that I am ever so glad that you are going to be my daughter in law. James loves you with all his heart, he does. But every time I see you with him, You look so....... unhappy. Is anything wrong dear ?" Patricia's eyes were filled with concern.

"Nothing at all, Iam just tired. But I Love your son. I really do." Amelia answered. "Alright Dear, but if there is anything bothering you, do tell me. We are a family." she smiled and placed her hand on Amelia's.

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"Amelia ?" A female voice called from behind. She turned around to see a young pretty Blonde woman. But her eyes were filled with anger and her face red like an apple. "Yes ?" She politely asked.

"Iam Celia Dupree." She looked at Amelia straight in her eyes. "From what I feel. I dont think you Love James." she snapped. Who was she ? and why is she judging Amelia ? They had never met before ! "Iam sorry but i dont think we have every met before." Amelia politely replied.

"Dont hold your breath. James does not know what he is heading for. He deserves me ! Not a low lying chit like you !" She practically screamed and Amelia could see tears slided down her. "Celia -" Amelia started but she was soon cut off. "Dont bother. You are the luckiest woman alive. Treat him well." She stomped off.

This made Amelia feel all the more guilty. She had undying feelings for Jack. But James Loves her so much. Celia is clearly head over heals for him. She sat down in the study and burried her face in her arms. God why is this happening to her ?