It's not love that I'm scared of, it's just the pain that comes with it.
The betrayal, the lies, the broken promises and deceit.
I've loved before, gave in my whole and everything,
I've let a fair number of people have my heart, but they were never fair, most never cared, and some never loved...
I've been belittled and made to feel like I'm not good enough,
I've felt like I'm always wrong, like I didn't matter and nobody really cared,
I've cried in the middle of the night, starved myself and shut everyone out,
I've had my eyes swollen, my mouth so dry and my body heating up yet the tears still escaped from my eyes and landed on my pillow.
I've been drowned by my own tears and nobody noticed, in that process I faked a smile and faked happiness.
The pain of my broken heart, my bruised trust and being taken for granted was too much,
I had to let it out but I couldn't talk about it in words, tears were the only way,
I could nolonger cope, I had to remove some of the broken pieces of my heart, I started cutting, yes I did it with every blood spot took the pain away.
In a way I'm scared this will happen again, I'm scared I will never really heal, im scared I'll never really trust someone, I'm scared I'll hurt other people while trying to heal myself, I'm scared no one will love me like I love them, I'm scared of breaking my heart again, I'm scared of experiencing that excruciating pain again.
I don't want to put myself through all of this again
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Poetry Is Therapy
PoetryI just recently started to share my work as a growing poetess and this will just have love poems ranging from heartbreak to happiness and a lot other poems about life. I'm not really a great writer and will purely appreciate your constructive critic...
