Poetry Is Therapy

I did , didn't I?

I'm stuck in this darkness,
Stuck in a place where there's no hope, Believe me when I say I'm hopeless myself, It's no choice but I have to,
I mean I've been crying for days, locked myself up, sadly no one cared enough to notice that I've disappeared, that i wasn't around.

This is crystal clear though, I cared quite a lot about you yet you just saw me as another girl in your life, Just so you know, you were my sunshine, my moon, my stars and everything...WERE being the main word ofcourse because that had changed, sadly. But I can't deny with you around I had the brightest days, peaceful nights and the biggest curve on my face, You were more like a tickle to me, just the sight of you would make me laugh.

Here I am now though, not knowing if the memories you left behind will ever fade, Not knowing if my heart will ever stop breaking when you cross my mind or when someone mentions your name, Not knowing if my mind can be able to zoom away from having the thoughts of you maybe for a day, Not knowing if these tears will ever stop flowing or they'll leave burrows on my face.

There's really nothing much I can do now, No words to say and no tune to play, But I'll take this time and tell you that you are missed, quite a lot, not that I still want you or anything, I just hope you'll find the ideal person you were looking for in me but never found. I know I got mad, tripped and cried over nothing and everything but just know I did it because I cared about you, I loved you, And didn't want to lose you, But in the end I did, didn't I?