I did not only take mylife last night,
But I also changed lives,
My momma can't even say a word, without breaking down into tears,
My father can't look into the world without cursing fore it took her little girl,
There are my sisters, all sitting together comforting each other, one trying to act stronger.
Last night I didn't only take mylife but I changed lives,
It just seemed okay then,
I was selfish wasn't I?
But.....
I was just in so much pain,
I felt so stuck, alone, rejected, neglected, unimportant, not valued, not cared for and not loved,
I just had no reason to be alive, nothing made sense,
I wanted to feel sane again, wanted to let out the anger, the pain, the disappointment and the frustration,
I wanted to be in control of mylife once again without these voices and demons in my head telling me what to do at ALL TIMES,
But was that too much to ask for?
My hands were shaking with tears being shed,
1,2,3.... swallow, 1,2,3.... swallow,
I've had 6 already but I still feel fine, so 1,2,3,4 ... swallow....
I feel dizzy and sleepy,
I want to stop....but I can't, yet I know, if I sleep now I'll never wake up.
Lub-dub, lub-dub my heart beats, way faster that before, my body heats up,
Slowly I sank into a peaceful place, with no worries and no pain,
Slowly I rested, never to be woken.
I might have ended my pain but I caused pain for a lot other people
Last night I didn't only take my life,
I changed lives.
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Poetry Is Therapy
PuisiI just recently started to share my work as a growing poetess and this will just have love poems ranging from heartbreak to happiness and a lot other poems about life. I'm not really a great writer and will purely appreciate your constructive critic...
