Poetry Is Therapy

I am sorry

For I loved you,
From the bottom of my heart I wanted to be with you, 
I believed in us and what we shared,
What we had seemed strong like it can never be broken,
And it never was broken instead I got broken,
I mean you broke me down till I couldn't find some of
my pieces,
With those empty spaces I stayed hoping to find my lost 
pieces with you, little did I know
You were still going to smack, kick and crush me into the finnest pieces.
.
I believed I was going to be fine, but without you being fine seem far,
Little by little the tears washed me away, all my pieces going in different
directions, all I could see were blood traces leading me nowhere,
I could really be compared to beach sand at that time, everyone stepped on me,
wind blew me and water erosed me, 
These caused me no pain, the only pain I could feel was the pain you caused me
.
When I remembered how I lost myself in you,
my tears rolled down faster than the rain, with my eyes
swollen like I have been punched a thousand times,
The more I thought of you was the more I realised how much I have been played,
The pain inside me rose and I cried every second of every minute of every hour
before I accepted I can never change what I have been put through.
.
All I wanted was for you to love me too
I wanted you to care
I wanted to belong with you but you made it clear
that you don't want the same.
So here I am apologizing,
Saying "sorry" with all my grace
Saying sorry not because I am healed but because I want to heal
Saying sorry just because I want to set myself free from your love
I am sorry I loved you