November 23, 2016
Ito na yung kinatatakutan kong mangyari pag naging tayo. Yung mapabayaan kita. Alam kong nagtatampo ka pero di ka manunumbat. Ilang beses na akong nagso-sorry pero wala.
Ito yung isa sa mga nag-hold back sa akin nung hindi pa tayo eh. Alam kong I'm really terrible at maintaining relationships. I love you, but I love my freedom too. Di kaya ng konsensya ko na ikaw lagi yung nag-a-adjust. Di rin kaya ng konsensya ko na pag humihiram ako ng pera sayo, ang tagal bago ako magbayad pero pag ako yung may pera sayo, kailangang mabalik agad.
Minsan, gusto kong makipaghiwalay na sa'yo. Di dahil may pagkukulang ka, pero dahil you're everything and even more. Above and beyond. Too good that it's killing me how I can just take you for granted. Maybe right now isn't really the best for me to be with you. Maybe I need to put myself together first, fill all the gaps I have, explore the world to satisfy my wonder.
You said you're willing to let me go out and be free, and you've done that. But somehow, it still doesn't feel enough. I want to break free from all the strings that attach me to you. But I want you too. And I don't want to lose you.
Sabi nila, explore together. I need to watch your animes and you need to read my stories. Have fun together. Go somewhere that's outside our comfort zones.
I like amusement parks rides. You can't go out because of your skin allergy.
You have these anime conventions. I don't have the money.
I found The Accountant good. You only wanted to cuddle all throughout the movie.
Ewan.
Kaya mo pa ba?
Update: December 11, 2016
Wala ka naman pala eh.
