Nagbreak na kami, matagal na. December pa. Pinag-usapan na namin yun ng maayos. Sabi ko, kung may hindi pa klaro, linawin na namin. I don't want to leave any line of communication open, not because I'm still in love with him but because I know that there's a strong tendency that my friendship will be mistaken as another shot at us getting back together.
I am absolutely positive that I do not want to have anything to do with him anymore. I deserve better. I'm getting on with my life.
Last January or February, I was out to grab some snacks when he showed up out of nowhere. It was totally uncalled for. I asked him nicely to stay away and leave me alone. He didn't budge. It was so melodramatic and creepy. We were walking back and forth the eatery in front of the village where I used to live in and the 7Eleven store at Pilar.
I went inside the village, hoping he won't come any closer because he doesn't live there. Bobo ko. Pumasok pa rin siya. Sinundan ako. Ayoko namang dumiretso sa tinitirhan ko kasi nakakahiya, nakikitira lang ako, magca-cause pa ako ng iskandalo? Ang tanga ko lang at hindi ako nagpatulong sa guard nun.
I was begging him in front of the village gates to just leave me alone. I was already on the verge of breaking down in public and asking him if I have to kneel down just so he'll stop. He walked away and left me, saying, "Hindi ko kaya."
What was I supposed to think about that? It was so hard after that day. It still is. Para akong aatakihin sa puso every time I'd see a guy who has the same built and hairstyle he does. Nakakagalit din yung iba kong tropa na sinasabing hindi lang ako maka-move on o ano ba.
Hindi ba pwedeng invasion of personal space yun? Oo, free country 'to, pero I think I still have a right not to speak to the people I don't want to be involved with in any form, don't I?
I've been receiving multiple calls, texts. He was chatting me up on ALL my social media accounts. If I block him on one account, he'd go around and approach me with a new one.
His latest gimmick was at ask.fm. I know that I'm at fault for tolerating anonymous people talking to me. Some might even say that I was asking for it, but I'm a loser. I only talk to a few people. So there. Call me gullible, but I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt because he said he wasn't my ex. Despite that nagging suspicion, I kept on talking to the anon, because I wanted to confirm if he really was my ex, and today, I just did.
Please get your friend a leash. Please. This is so unfair. Does the world expect me to close all my social media accounts just so he'd stop talking to me? Doesn't anyone understand how creepy this is? Pagtatawanan niyo na naman ba akong mga hinayupak kayo? Sana ma-invade din personal space niyo para maintindihan niyo kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. I didn't ask for this. I wasn't on ask.fm flaunting myself for my ex to approach me. I wasn't walking on the street displaying myself for an unwanted person to come talk to me. Refusing is not enough. Asking nicely isn't enough. Begging isn't enough either. Ano ba?
