Nightfall.
I wake up only to find myself all alone, which is the usual. But it is the hardest and saddest parts of my nights. I'm sorry if I miss you. You know, it only took a single hug to make me forget all the angst I harbored for years. Lord knows, how much I want to feel that warmth again. I need you. I miss you. But you left.
I'm such a baby. I hate this feeling. I hate it when I start to miss you and then I remember how I didn't get the chance to say goodbye. Then, it rains. Damn you, weather.
"Hope dangles on a string..."
Indeed it does. "Vindicated! I am selfish! I am wrong! I am right! I swear I'm right! And I am fine, but I am cleaning up so well..."
Too bad Dashboard Confessional and I aren't on the same page. I feel like putting a Bruno Mars, maybe?
"If you ever leave me, baby..."
That's more like it.
I think I need some morphine. You just freaking left me. There's still sunlight, but I already lost you. I still see clear skies, but it's not the same now, baby. I ain't like the clouds, my eyes won't do the same...
But know that my heart will. And that hurts more. It freaking hurts more.
I hope you'll be happy in your life especially now that I'm leaving it. You may think of coming back, but you won't have anyone to return to.
And because of you, I am listening to this weird song. Feels like I'm walking in the rain... I find myself trying to wash away the pain...
I love you. I really do. No lies... But the thing is, I'm only human.
Why did you have to leave? Do you hate me?
I'm only human.
Oh, fuck it. I'm overusing my "I'm only human" alibi again.
But fuck you, too. Don't let me in your gates if you're just gonna leave me standing on your doorstep.
I am fuming mad at you. You freaking frustrate me, but girl, I love you. You're more than a cycle--you are a person. You can get through that, if you'll let yourself. Do something. Stop destroying yourself
