Only the moon knows

Rage and Promises

     ****Sexual content in this chapter****

  It had been a few days since the night that we went out together and I had been trying to clear my head to make an actual decision about what I was going to do. I wasn't sure as I was after I saw a different side of Anthony the side that I was expecting when I made my way on Bloodmoon territory. 

***Flashback***

     I had woken up early in order to help Sean go through some things for the new training routine that we were putting into place for the female members of the pack specifically. I noticed when I got here that they were being trained, but not to the level of the males which I was less than happy about. I wanted to get my own work out in before working with him so I sure to get up extra early going through my routine before most of the other wolves were even up. As I made my way through my work out i became too hot even in my small yoga shorts and a t-shirt so I peeled off the now damp shirt just revealing my sports bra under it continuing with my work out. I finished my last part just as Sean made his presence on the field walking over to me with a smile on his face that I returned. "You really do put us all to shame girl. Ease up you make me feel less of a man" he joked with a smirk on his face the whole time. I glared at him with a hint of humor in my eyes saying back "I didn't have to try hard to do that". "Ouch Dani that one hurt that one hurt right here" he said laughing point at his heart. We both laughed for a minute before we walked over to the high top table off to the side of the training course where there was outlines of work out routines that I had been working on. We each took a side of the table looking over the outlines when I didn't realize how dangerously close we were together. "Well don't you two look comfortable" I heard a low growl behind me that caused me to jump. It was only then that I realized that I was still only wearing my sports bra and small shorts as well as our two heads were close enough that we could have been kissing. I jumped back from the table as well as Sean as he moved around the table too with his arms up in surrender "It's not what it looks like Alpha". You could tell he didn't want to anger Anthony any more by calling him anything but and was trying his best to show he wasn't a threat. It was at that moment that I took in the amount of rage rolling off of Anthony's body so much of it that it was almost visual as well as his eyes being so black that he looked possessed. There was no reasoning with him at this point and he simply attacked. He lunged at Sean who tried to avoid him, but Anthony was too quick instantly having him tackled to the ground under him throwing punch after punch. I was frozen in place until a scream ripped through my throat "Anthony STOP! Please STOP!". At this he froze mid swing of his fist his body getting up and shifting mid stride into his russet colored wolf before going off into the woods without even sparring me a second glance. 

**End flashback**

     It had been two days since that incident and now there was a level of fear within me, but at the same time there was still a yearn for his presence that I couldn't described. You can't say that you wouldn't have reacted the same way if a she-wolf was that close to him Alexa growled. I scoffed back at her, but would I have? I hadn't really seen Anthony since it happened, but I did check on Sean who healed within minutes due to his beta blood assuring me that he was fine and that he would have done the same thing if the tables were turned. Reminding me that I wasn't marked yet so that probably had a great deal to do with it. I laid on my bed before getting up and moving towards my balcony. The worst part of all of this was I was sleeping terribly. My body and Alexa as she so often told me our mate was just a down the hall and probably needed comforting, but I was stubborn and refused to go to him. I needed to talk this out with someone. Cole? Are you there? I poked at the mind link knowing that it was early only 5:30 when I looked at the clock. D? Are you alright?? Do you need me to come get you?? ARE YOU HURT?!? I'LL KILL HIM! he responded panicked then becoming angry. No no I'm fine I'm just confused...I needed someone who really knew me to talk to I stated back softly before letting the images of the memory play through my head for him to see. My phone then started ringing on the bed side table I picked it up right away seeing that it was Cole. "Hey" I said softly. "Oh Dani...do you remember what I told you before we left? That time when we were sitting on the log looking at the water?" "Yeah you told me whatever I was planning that you wanted in"I responded back to him. At this he laughed "of course you wouldn't remember the part where I told you that Derek wasn't the only one that was upset you didn't find your mate in our pack. You have to remember something D mates are very protective and you happen to have a very powerful alpha as a mate. Can you imagine the pain he was going through when he saw his unmarked mate practically naked in front of an unmated male?" I didn't know how to respond to this. I actually never thought how Anthony felt in that situation...of course he probably was mad why wouldn't he be, but I just never expected that. "Yeah, but that's his beta...his best friend.."I stated back which Cole responded with a full on deep laugh "I wouldn't care if it was my brother I would have done the same thing he did". At this everything fully clicked. I had been too harsh on Anthony especially when he needed me to reassure him that I was his. I should have seen it as what it really was an instinct  something he could not and should not control. It was his drive to protect this realization suddenly made me feel warm throughout my whole body a new sense of euphoria that I had never felt before. I quickly thanked Cole before hanging up telling him I'd call later. I knew what I had to do and I was going to make sure that Anthony knew where my head was at.