Unconditionally (Lesbian Story)

11

I'm in that warm safe place somewhere between being asleep but awake, I'm awake enough to be aware that I'm actually dreaming but being a little aware of the world around me I know Katy is next to me and I know she's talking to someone and it's not me. I have no idea what she's saying and am more than happy to just be here next to Katy.

Scrap that I was happy to just be here next to Katy but I'm assuming she's finished on the phone now and she knows I'm not really asleep anymore because I can feel the bed moving and Katy's weight pressed into me and having Katy pressed to my side is always going to be one of my most favourite positions. 

"Morning sleepy head," I know she's referring to the fact that she's woken up first and not the other way round for a change, I know she'a getting used to finding me awake and watching her sleep. I think it's the jetlag I don't know what time of day it's meant to be anymore.

"Morning you," I don't bother to open my eyes I don't feel the need my life isn't getting much better than this right now. It couldn't there's really is nothing more I could ask for than what I have, Katy is everything my whole world wrapped up in 5 foot 6 inches of perfection.

"I bet you really don't know what times zone you're a part of right now do you?" She presses a feather light kiss on my temple before kissing my neck and resting her head on my shoulder. This finally makes me open my eyes she never ceases to amaze me with her intuition and her just how much she really does care about what I'm thinking and feeling. "We can do whatever you want to do today so if you want to stay in bed that's what we'll do."

"Won't you get bored?" I'm only being half serious as I roll over so I can pull her into my arms and say good morning properly. It's still a little overwhelming how I can go from too tired to think to throb with the need for this woman in a matter of moments and all she has to do is say good morning. Pulling her close I run my hands over her back cupping her arse pulling her closer to me. She comes willingly kissing me greedily and I can feel the need in her growing too.

"I think we could find something to do," she teases bringing her hand up to skim over my shoulder and down my arm till she's holding one of my hands in hers.

"If you want to spend the day right here I don't care I just want to spend it with you. I miss you so much when we're not together and no matter what I need you to know I love you."

"What's the matter, Katy?" She looks really sad all of a sudden and the light teasing seems to have evaporated.

"Nothing I'm fine I just get a bit carried away with the way I feel about you every once in a while." She smiles gently squeezing my hand.

I'm not a hundred percent convinced but then she kisses me again and nothing apart from the way it feels to have Katy's lips on mine seems to matter. She slips her hand from mine and this time as she runs it slowly back up my body she does it under the tank top that I had chosen to sleep in the night before. As she reaches my left breasts she flicks my rapidly hardening nipple and my body gives an almost pre-programed response as I hiss and arch my back she takes my reaction as a chance to deepen our kiss, I almost feel like my brain has shut off and I'm running on pure emotion as Katy very skillfully takes control of the situation and my body.

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"I've just worked out the reason we might have to leave this bed today." She smiles at me as my stomach rumbles rather loudly protesting at its lack of attention so far this morning.

"That wasn't attractive was it?" I joke.

"Everything about you is attractive to me." She insists earnestly and I know she means it. "But I think we should feed the beast! So let me take you out for lunch."

"You don't have to."

"I know I don't have to but I want to treat you."

"Keep this up and you'll never be rid of me."

"I don't want to be rid of you ever." She suddenly looks all serious again.

"Hey, I was only joking," I assure her pulling her closer to me kissing her temple. "You should know by now I'm in this for the long hall no matter what anyone says or does I'm here to stay because I love you so very much."

"I love you too. It sends me a little crazy at times when I think about how much. How can one person be so vital to my existence."

"I don't know how it works the way it does between us all I know is I never want it any other way, you and me forever."

"You say the most amazing things sometimes. I'm in this for the long hall too I promise."

"Good now we mentioned feeding me?" I grin.

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The only problem with being out and about in LA with Katy is the fact that two of us mean double paparazzi attention and it really does just annoy me. Don't get me wrong I l know that it comes with part of the deal when you sign on to be a pop star but really do you need photo after photo of us going to a restaurant or just walking down the street what worth can there really be in a photo of us walking down the street even if we are holding hands.

"Alex, did you know Lewis is in the states?" Katy stiffens by my side not noticeably to the press but I can tell they have hit a nerve. I don't answer you never answer there's no point half the time they are looking for a reaction and you don͛t want to give them the satisfaction. Katy though is eerily silent by my side so even if they don't know it they have gotten a reaction.

"I didn't know he was here," I tell her the moment we are out of earshot of the press. The look I get a tilt of the head and a raised eyebrow is something akin to do you really think I'm stupid? I look to Jane who shakes her head she had no idea of Lewis's movements or the reason behind them either. The truth is I don't keep tabs on Lewis I have no need to it's over between us and probably way even before we split up. So if Lewis is in the states it's news to me, it's October though and he should be a couple of months into a new football season he has no reason to be in LA. "I swear to you I didn't know he was here, he should be in England playing football so I'm as shocked as you are that he's over here."

"You haven't spoken to him?"

"What? No!" I really can't believe that she has just asked me that. I really thought she would have known without a shadow of a doubt that that I haven't spoken to him since the day he came storming into our hotel the day after she told the world that she loved me. The hurt must register on my face because she reaches out to touch me but I evade the movement.

"Alex I'm being a jerk I'm sorry."

She looks genuinely sorry but I'm really hurt that the first mention of Lewis and she just thinks the worst of me. I know Lewis is this massive part of my past I was after all engaged to him what now feels like a lifetime ago. I also know that without a shadow of a doubt that if she keeps doubting me when it comes to him we are going to have an uphill battle.

"I'm suddenly not that hungry," I tell her moving farther away from her. The truth is I just need to clear my head for a minute and I can't do that when she's close to me. "I'll meet you at yours," I tell her as Jane nods to my unspoken question she will, of course, take me anywhere I want to go.