Unconditionally (Lesbian Story)

15

“We need to talk?”

Jane has kicked me out of her room giving me no choice but to find Katy. The moment I set sights on her the words tumble from my lips almost against my will. Katy looks from me to her sister a look of resignation on her face she doesn’t want to have this conversation either but we have to.

“Can’t we spend the last few hours we have doing anything but this I don’t want to fight with you, Lex.”

“I don’t want to fight with you, but we have to talk about it all.”

“Katy she’s right and being pretty grown-up about it all try it,” Angela tells Katy as she heads out of the room. I hold my hand out to Katy once we are alone she just looks at me for a moment but relents and takes my outstretched hand. I pull her close to me kissing her temple as I wrap my arms around her.

“I don’t want to fight about this I know how much seeing your brother and being with your family means to you. I also don’t want to have to see you on a date with some guy.”

“Don’t you trust me?”

“This has nothing to do with me trusting you. You know I trust you I just don’t want to share you.”

“You’re not sharing me its dinner with some guy that I will never see again.” She pushes away from me taking a step back looking at me. “It’s not like I’m going to be making out with him.”

“Again not my point because I trust you but I don’t think this will be the end of it. I can’t stop you from doing this though that’s not the point I just need you to know it’s not just going to be all OK with me if you just do this.”

“I’m sorry my parents can’t be as cool as yours are about all of this. I will talk to them I will tell them this isn’t OK but I don’t think my brothers birthday is the time for that.”

I bite down on my initial reaction which is to turn around and just leave her stood there. I’m trying to be a little more grown-up than just walking away from my problems but my god she’s pushing my buttons. I take a step back putting more space between the two of us. Once I’ve backed up to the island in the middle of the kitchen I stop and rest against it looking at her.

“I’ve never once said anything about the way your parents have reacted to us. I understand it in a way they have very different beliefs about gays I get that. It doesn’t mean though that I’m going to be happy when they think it’s ok to set you up with any guy they want in a bid to cure you.”

“I don’t want to lose my family, “ she admits sounding defeated. I almost want to reach out to her but I stand my ground.

“I don’t want you to lose your family, I also don’t want to lose you I love you, Katy.”

“I love you too you know that right? There’s no way I could ever be happy with anyone but you. Definitely, not some guy that my parents think is suitable. You’re not the only person that has reservations about this whole situation but I don’t know what to do for the best. I want everyone to be happy.”

“You’re never going to make everyone happy Katy it’s statistically impossible why don’t you try making you happy.” I learnt that from my time with Lewis I spent so much time worrying about him being happy and not upsetting my parents that I lost me and who I was. I’d rather not have Katy in my life than have her feel like that.

“And what if me happy makes you sad?”

“Then we’ll work that out together. The me that you met that was so unhappy was someone who was trying to make so many other people happy and look where that got me.”

“You weren’t the person you are now.”

“No, so don’t lose you to make everyone else happy.”

“And what about Lewis?”

“What about him?”

“Do you want to find out what he wants?”

“Not particularly. Would you like me to?”

“It doesn’t really feel like I have a right to ask you not to do anything right now.”

“I’m always going to want to hear your opinion and I’m always going to want to try and take it in to consideration when I make a decision.”

“Subtle little dig there ‘Lex.”

I hadn’t actually meant it as a dig at her and the situation with her parents but I can tell that’s exactly how it has been taken and we are going to be heading to round, I’ve actually lost count.

“Not what I meant!”

“No? Just so happens that you don’t feel like I’m taking your feelings in to consideration when it comes to dinner with my parents. I’m sorry that I’m obviously not as good at this as you seem to be.”

“I didn’t think you wanted to fight with me.” I remind her tilting my head a little hoping to be able to stop this before it gets out of hand.

“Well it doesn’t look like I’m going to be getting my wish does it. I don’t want to fight with you but my parents and Lewis don’t seem to want to go away and they are right here between us.”

“They don’t have to be but we let them.”

“I guess that’s my fault to!” She turns from me hugging herself.

“We let it happen.” I sigh coming to stand behind her. “I think I should fly back early. I think we both need some time to think all this threw on our own.”

“You want an out.” She turns to look at me tears streaming down her cheeks.

“I want no such thing. Nothing has changed I’m still madly in love with you.”

“Don’t go then!” She implores passionately locking eyes with me pleading. “Not yet anyway I know you have to at some point but not right now stay please.”

“Stay and fight about this or worse pretend like nothing is happening. I really don’t think that I can do that.”

“Do you want to break up with me?”

I do step closer to her now cupping her cheeks and resting our foreheads together.

“The thought hadn’t entered my head.”

I’m not lying the thought of Katy and I not together has never crossed my mind I just need a moment to think. I’m mad right now not at her but the situation that doesn’t seem to want to let us have a moment.

They say that there is a thin line between anger and passion and although I believe it I’ve never been in a position where I want to strangle someone and fuck them in the same moment. Something inside me snaps and I run my hand from her cheek till its tangled in her hair and I crush our lips together. If she’s surprised she doesn’t let it show as she kisses me back with as much if not more passion. We battle for dominance of the kiss I’m vaguely aware of the taste of blood in my mouth and I’m not sure if it’s hers or mine. I don’t have time to process it though as my back comes painfully into contact with the island in Katy’s kitchen and I feel her roughly pull my top from my jeans.

I don’t want to let her have it all her own way, I reverse our position encouraging her to wrap her legs around me as I do so that I can hoist her onto the counter. I’m running on pure instinct at this point and I only know two things I need to mark that perfect skin of hers and I need to hear her scream my name.