Unconditionally (Lesbian Story)

12

Part of me wants to go and smack Lewis for being in the country, part of me wants to go smack Katy for being so worked up that Lewis is in the country, but then I also want to go back in time and smack myself. If I had handled things with Katy better when I first met her maybe we wouldn't be in this situation now.

"What the fuck is he doing in LA?" I finally ask Jane. We've been driving aimlessly around the streets of LA for well over an hour now and I've pretty much been lost in my head, so it comes as no surprise to me when Jane feels the need to look at me to make sure she hasn't just hallucinated me speaking to her.

"Well he hasn't tried to contact you so maybe it has nothing to do with you being out here."

"Yeah right!" I roll my eyes at the thought of that, "just a big old coincidence that he's out here at the exact same time as me."

"Yeah Lex maybe, I hate to break it to you and I know you employ a lot of people whose job it is just to make you believe this, but you are not the centre of the universe."

I feign shock and hurt at her words holding one hand to my heart. "You take that back, Billy?" I turn in my seat slightly to ask the car's other occupant Billy Davis one of the poor guys that gets to follow me around and make sure I don't get into much hassle when I'm out in public like today. He's such a good guy he's been around so long he's almost like part of the family which makes being around him 24/7 sometimes, a little easier to take.

"Yes," he responds to my question with the look of a man that would rather not get involved.

"Do you think I'm the centre of the universe?"

"Of course, you are," he smiles shaking his head a little at my question. I hope because he thinks it's ridiculous and that I'm still as down to earth now as I was when I first dreamed of being in the music business, not because I'm a total Diva and I'm the only one that hasn't noticed.

"That's settled then." I smile turning back to Jane, "What's he doing here then coincidently in the middle of August?"

"Maybe he's injured."

Ok so there she may have a point I'm so worked up over Katy I've not thought about this properly there are other reasons he could be out here right now and it's not beyond the realms of possibility that Manchester United would send a player like Lewis to the states to help them recover from certain injuries. The truth is I haven't really followed Manchester United since I left Lewis, so I really don't know. Time to do a little investigating I decide so I pull out my mobile and but a search in 'Lewis Day Manchester United' to my surprise it's not tails of cruciate knee ligaments that come up but talk of a three-match ban for a straight red card he received in a match two days ago. My first thought is well that's better than an injury least he won't be out for long, then it hits me Lewis got sent off he's never had a red card in his career he's not a saint, but he's always been in control on the football pitch and I wonder what's going on in his head right now to have been sent off.

"So?" Jane questions glancing from the road to my phone.

"He got sent off he's got a three-match ban so I'm still none the wiser as to why he chose this as his mini-break destination."

"Red card! Lewis!" Her reaction is pretty much the same as mine he's lost his mind. "Stop it!" My face must show that I'm suddenly worried that Lewis is in the middle of some downward spiral that has been brought on by my leaving him and the way that I left him.

"He's never been sent off in his career and now he has a red card and I'm not supposed to think it might have something to do with me."

"He's a big boy whatever is going on in his head right now is not down to you. Katy is your concern, not him."

"You think I fucked up with Katy?"

"No, I don't think she should doubt you when it comes to Lewis, but hurting Lewis is still in your head this proves it. So, my advice is let it go you love Katy and yeah things could have been timed better at the beginning but sometimes the world doesn't work like that we both know it."

"I know and believe me Katy is always my main priority, I probably shouldn't have walked out on her, but it upset me that she just assumed that I must have spoken to him, I promised her I would always tell her what was going on not just what I think she needs to hear."

"You were pissed at her I get it, let's head back to hers though now she's probably going out of her mind worrying about what you're going to say and do next. You two can kiss and make up and talk this through and whatever Lewis is doing over if it has anything to do with you the two of you can deal with it together."

"That's probably a good idea I've only got a limited time out here I don't want to waste it being mad at each other. I don't say this enough Jane, but I really don't know what I'd do without you here next to me making sure I don't fuck my life up too much I really do love you."

"Stop it I'll blush," she smiles catching my eye for a second before concentrating back on the road. "You know I wouldn't want to be anywhere else and I love you too."