Roses ~ Shawn Mendes Story

chapter 17

I wake up in an unfamiliar bed. Where am I? Then the memories come back. How I went to the club, the guy who offered me a drink and Jason who took me to his apartment. And finally also the part where I saw Shawn and Camila making out. I could fell my heart cramp at the thought of Shawn. I begin to tear up again but somehow I manage to hold the tears back.

I look next to me but there is nobody. I get up and walk into the kitchen where Jason is standing making breakfast.
"Good morning" I say and he turns around.
"Morning" he says in a deep morning voice. He looks up and down at me. I also look down at me and realize that I'm only wearing a oversize shirt from Jason over my underwear which reaches till my midtights. I decide to ignore it.

I look up into Jasons eyes and see something that surprises me. He looks at me as if he is going to kiss me. But the moment is over fast and Jason continues to make breakfast.

"Do you like pancakes?" he asks.
"Is this a joke? I LOVE them!" I yell running to the table and sitting down.
"I'm glad then because I have many!" he laughes and puts them on my plate.
"Thank you"

We start eating in silence. I know what he's going to ask. He for sure wants to know what happened yesterday. And I can't resent.

"So..." he starts not knowing how to ask. I interrupt him.
"I know you want an explanation for my behaviour yesterday and why I did that, don't you?"
He scratches his neck.
"Yeah I wanted to ask that. Will you tell me?"
"If I can." My eyes begin to fill with tears again. Jason looks at me worried.
"Come here" he opens his arms for me and I let him hold me close.
"Everything will be fine." he caresses my hair.
"No nothing is fine anymore!" I sob and stand up.
"I thought Shawn loved me! I really thought that I'm special to him! I'm such an idiot why am I so stupid to think that!" I yell.
"Shhh" he lies a finger on my lips.
"Keep calm and tell me everything from the beginning."
Jason calms me down a little bit and I sit down next to him again.

I told him everything from when Camila started to bully me to where I cought them. When I'm finished I look at Jason.
"I'm going to kill him!" he says with clenched teeth and his hands turn into fists.
"No please don't do anything! He's not worth it." I say to calm him.
"Yes you are right. I'm sorry Mia I should have protected you from him."
"No Jason it's fine. It's my fault I should have known it. Thank's for being here for me!"
"Your welcome. I do anything for you!"
I give him a big hug.

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New York is the third last stop of the Jingle Ball Tour. The whole crew is staying in New York now, including me. We will go to Arizona and then to California for the next 4 days. Then it's over.

After the talk with Jason I went back to my hotel and put on my sportswear. I went jogging to clear my mind.

When I come back I see Shawn standing in front of my room. Oh no! I try to turn around silently but he has already noticed me. I'm not ready to face him yet.

I walks towards me.
"Mia where were you, I was worried!" he asks in a clearly worried tone.
"I was at Jason's" I said emotionless. Even if I'm heartbroken inside, I try not to show it on the outside.
"Mia listen please. I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you and I don't know what was going on in my mind. I know that it was a mistake and..." I cut him off.
"Don't apologize if you don't mean it."
"But it's the truth! I love you! Please forgive me this will never happen again I promise!" I can tell he's desperate.
"You should have thought about that before you did it. You hurt me! I just can't... I'm sorry but I can't forgive you." I feel the tears welling up. I run towards my door, open it and go inside. I shut the door. Hopefully he didn't see the tears.

Christmas is tomorrow and I finally have holidays!!! I will probably update tomorrow but I'm not quite sure yet.
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