Elowen

The end and the beginning

' Dan no - fuck off ' I say harshly - trying to keep my expression cold and hard while my insides cripple and my heart sinks through the earths mantle .
' I - I don't understand , I - I love you ' he says his eyes brimming with tears as I back away from him when he tries to reach his hand out to me .
' exactly - I never wanted this ' I say turning away - too afraid he'll see I'm lying . I feel as though I'm going to cave over onto the pavement as I walk away . Pain impales my chest as I hear him yell my name . He promises me we can work it out . He begs me to come back . I walk faster .
He doesn't come after me as I turn the corner out of his sight and out of his life . He didn't follow because I asked him not to , I only wish he could read between the lines and see the great 'I love you' that my tears spell out to him , as I get back into the cigarette smoke filled car and I'm driven away from the only real love I've ever known .
' it had to be done ' he says lighting up another cigarette .
' no - not like this ' I whisper
' girls like you - they don't mix with guys like him - '
' you mean the papers don't pay for girls like me ' I interrupt him through gritted teeth .
' I'm glad you understand ' he says with a bitter smile . I bite my tongue and refuse to lash out on him . It's done now and he'll never speak to me again . There's no point in being angry - I don't have the energy to be .
He was my only energy . My everything .

7 months earlier

' Its fucking freezing ' Daniella complains to me trying to wrap her coat around her tiny frame tighter still . I'll admit I was about to die from hypothermia - but I'm not going anywhere until I see this fucking band .
' Look were nearly at the front! ' I encourage her shuffling forward in the agonisingly slowly moving line .
' You owe me one ' she says through chattering teeth .
' I know - did I mention I love you ?' I say with a cheeky smile . She'd never even heard of Bastille before tonight , but my friend Jess bailed and she was the only person who stepped in and saved me from the tragedy of going to see my favourite band with nobody to scream and dance with .
' Hello ladies - can I see your tickets and bags please '
We both willingly give our bags to the security guy as he quickly scans out tickets and checks our tiny purses for explosives .
' Okay - enjoy your night ' he says letting us through the door .
The warm air hits us we both sigh in relief
' I'm going to need to defrost ' she jokes rubbing her hands together .
' You'll be sweating once were dancing ' I say grabbing her arm and leading her through the doors to the tiny venue where they would soon be playing . We quickly get two beers and head to the crowd of roughly 300. Everyone was clustered right at the front and honestly I was hoping for a better view than this but I'll take what I can get - Bastille are fucking epic and my heart beats with exhilaration as the lights start to lower signalling someone was coming on stage .
' this is it !!!' I squeak fangirling for the first time in my life . Daniella rolls her eyes at me as I hear the tap of the drum sticks and the the chords of a guitar .
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' you can't say you didn't love it ' I say putting up my umbrella as I feel the once light drizzle come down harder .
' I enjoyed it ' she admits with a smile lighting up her cigarette. I wrinkle my nose disapprovingly at her bad habit .
' you should really quit y'know- not only is it killing your lungs but also mine , second hand smoke also causes cancer ' I inform her . I hated smoking , it reminded me of my father .
' I know I know . It'll be my New Years resolution ,' she promises taking a drag . I roll my eyes . It was dark , we were nearly back at my place but still , Manchester was unnerving on a Saturday evening this late . Maybe it was because I was still feeling elated after the show , or the effects of my previous two beers but I hardly noticed the figure that had been following us for nearly 4 blocks . I mentioned it to Daniella but she dismissed me so I shrugged it off . Only a few minutes from my house I feel someone grab my arm and twist it causing me to drop my umbrella . I turn around to be met with a hooded figure and a shiny glinting object held in his fist .
' hand me the bag and nobody gets hurt ' he mutters quietly . I turn my head to see Daniella is also being held up by whom i guess is this guys sidekick .I've never been mugged before and I honestly didn't know how to respond , so I just did what he said , slowly slipping the bag off my shoulder and down my arm . He snatches from my hands
' Dude lets go !' He yells . At that exact moment a black car stops on the side of the road and I see a group emerge from the door shouting . At first I though more guys were out to attack us , but then I hear a strangely familiar voice ask ' are you ladies alright ?'
The muggers start to run with my bag and one of the men chase after him down the street and out of sight .
'Did those guys mug you ?' One of them asks . I'm so frightened and flustered I couldn't even mutter a yes , so I just nod hoping these guys would help us .
Daniella starts to cry and one of them comforts her and asks her rapid questions about what they looked like , assuring her they won't let them get away with this .
I just stand there frozen , my vision blurred and my knees weak as one of the other men approaches me and begins to ask me the same kinds of questions ' are you alright love ? Did you see what the looked like ? ' he continues but I just stare straight feeling as though I'm going to pass out .
' love can you talk to me - look here ' he says meeting my gaze . His eyes are a soft baby blue and his hair is wild and black .
I try to answer but nothing comes out . I feel myself losing balance as I reach out for his arms trying not to collapse but failing .
I hear him say 'oh shit - she's fainted ,KYLE WE NEED AN AMBULANCE !' and then I'm out for the count .