Recovery (Conor Maynard AU)

Chapter Twenty-two|Bloody Knuckles

(Edited ! Feel free to read) ~Song of the chapter "i miss the old u" by blackbear.

Friday arrived sooner than expected, meaning that this evening I was going to take out Colin. Uneasiness was running in my system, making me somewhat nervous. Thing was, that I didn't know what to expect. I could not halfway guess what was going to happen if Conor were to be there too. Even though the evening should be for Colin and him only, I knew that my attention was rather going to be on Conor. No matter how heartless it may sound, I was frankly more interested in the asshole - and for that I had multiple reasons.

The unknown or mystery was something that attracted people over centuries and I sure as hell was no exception. Not only Conor but also Ashley were a mystery to me and I wanted to solve the puzzle. Deep down a feeling inside of me told me that they were somehow linked with me in a way I wouldn't have guessed in a million years. We three had a connection and I was hell bound on going to find out what that was all about.

Obviously, I was sick and tired of always pushing upcoming questions aside. It was now the time to figure out and finally understand. There was this urge that pushed me forward and kept me motivated to not just give up.

I was very well going to uncover the truth, even though - I must admit - it was also kind of intimidating. Who knew, what I was going to find out. No one could assure me that I was going to like the outcome. But yet I felt like I must keep going if I really want to pull a finishing line between Conor and me. I needed to get rid of what was drawing me in about him - and that was his mysterious aura.

"Are you sure about going there ?" Grace asked me, as we were currently standing by my locker. She was looking at me with concerned eyes, whilst she twirled a strand of her hair around her finger. I nodded my head determinedly.

"Why not ?" I asked her back, shrugging my shoulders. Yes, so maybe I had my what ifs and abouts too, but I felt like this was an important step to take in order to get to more information. It wasn't like Ashley and Conor were just going to spill the beans - okay maybe Conor was about to do that in the car the other day, but I just so happened to mess up my chance. Whatever, there is always a second way too.

"You're only taking Colin there because Conor is probably going to be there as well" Grace figured out very quickly, shooting me an unsatisfied look. How did she even remember that I had told her that he worked there ?

"Why would I go there because of him ?" I snapped, faking my actions. Obviously I couldn't just tell her the real reason and let her know that I was on the hunt for truth. Therefore, I would have to reveal too much information about Conor and Ashley and a voice in my head advised me that I should better keep those things to myself.

"Oh come on Destiny" Grace groaned, "Are you trying to make him jealous or something ?"
Her words hit me hard, taken me aback. Blinking a couple times, I shook my head no.
I had not thought about that aspect yet, but still I felt like even though I was denying it to no end, I might or might not have wanted to do that exactly as well.

Making him jealous kind of seemed like the perfect revenge. He was making me jealous to no end and breaking my heart into a million pieces every time he put his lips on her. The idea of him feeling the same seeing me with another guy appeared low-key appealing to me. But that was of course the devil talking inside of me.

Everyone has his own little demon hiding in the corner of their mind and lurking from the dark. Mine seemed to like getting into action at the mention of Conor and Ashley together.

"I am not trying to make him jealous" I clarified, shutting my locker a little harder than I had intended to.

"Uh huh" Grace said, "The Destiny I know would never ever step foot into that restaurant ever again."