Hard Habit to Break #Wattys2017

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- Rhian -

Three years had passed.

Do you ever think that I would ended up dead?

Yes or No?

Honestly, for me, it's a big YES.

Stage 3A Lung Cancer.

How does that sounds like? Scary right?

I remembered when I was in the hospital, lying so helpless and feeling sorry for myself... Someone told me that in our normal everyday lives, there are tiny miracles happen... Yes, everyday. We just haven't noticed it...

It's not impossible as what most of us know... It exist. It happens. Because miracle is a part of our universe. It's God's pleasant surprise to all of us...
All we have to do is to move our doubting minds out of the way.

Sometimes, we don't need to think a lot, or to wonder... Or even imagine and be obsess... All we need to do is breath and have faith on him. Coz miracles do happen when we give much of our energy to our beliefs than of our fears.

And every energy always have a source. Mine? My family and Glaiza.

Who still remember the time when I decided to walk away?

Everytime it crosses my mind I always called myself stupid... Mabuti na lang at hindi ko itinuloy...

Coz if I did, I would have been regretting it all my life.

Coz for once, I dreamed of a happy ever after kind of love story, but how it ends that way if the princess would runaway?

But its not a typical prince-princess kind of fairytale, for I've got a HER instead of HIM.

...

Glaiza kept her promise.

From that day in the airport, she never bothered me anymore about her feelings or asked me about our label... Instead, things were back into how it used to before.

Gaya nang sabi ko sa kanya, nanatili syang isang napakabuting bestfriend sa akin kahit pa may mga pagkakataong alam kong nasasaktan ko sya lalo pa sa mga desisyon ko na labag sa loob nya.

Ipinagpatuloy ko ang medication ko sa London habang pinilit ko si Glaiza na tapusin ang kanyang kontrata sa showbiz sa America.

Nang matapos ang unang series of treatment sa sakit ko, naging positibo ang epekto nito sa akin. Kahit mejo bumagsak ang katawan ko, mabuti ang respond nito sa medications. Nacontrol ang paglaganap ng mga cancer cells at sa tulong na din nang combination of chemo and radiation therapy.

Nang sinimulan na ang 2nd series ng treatment sakin, hindi ko inasahan na mas mahirap pa ito kesa sa una,.. Dumoble ang pangangayayat ko na halos ay ayoko nang tignan ang sarili ko sa salamin.

Pero nalampasan ko iyon sa awa nang Dyos... Sa tulong na din ng pamilya ko, ni Glaiza at ng spiritual adviser na kilala ni Dad. Mas nilakasan ko ang pananalig ko sa kanya at lahat ng paghihirap ko ay nag bunga, lumiit nang lumiit ang tumor sa baga ko at kinalaunan ay pinagpasyahan na tanggalin ito.