In Hate, We Love

14. Across the room

The morning arrives after a fitful nights sleep.

I slowly wake and realise i am lying on the sofa, wrapped up in a blanket.

"Bellamy" i say quietly "Bellamy?" I say slightly louder.

"Here!" He calls from behind the sofa.

I sit up and turn to see him stood in the kitchen, wearing his clothes from yesterday.

There is a blanket and sofa cushion on the floor.

"Oh i hope you dont mind, i got a blanket from the cupboard" Bellamy says over his shoulder before walking over with a plate of eggs and bacon.

"You moving in?" I joke feebly and Bellamy laughs.

"Live-in cook sounds better than Janitor" He replies lightly, sitting down and passing a plate to me.

"You dont have to stay you know, really im okay" i insist, he probably has work or classes to go to.

"I'm not just going to lea-"

The door to my mums room opens slowly and Bellamy swiftly rises to his feet, placing his untouched plate of food out on the coffee table.

"Morning Mum" i say

"Morning, oh hello...Bellamy, is it?" She says smiling slightly.

"He just came over to check up on me"

"I was just leaving" he says, stepping towards the door.

I stand now and give him a look that says please dont.

"I made breakfast, better eat it while it's hot" Bellamy says kindly, looking past me to my mum and my heart aches a little as he walks towards the door.

I follow, "Bellamy, really, you dont have to go." I say quietly, regretting ever telling him to leave.

"See you soon Princess" he replies just as quietly before beeping the door open and leaving.

The door slips closed and i sit with my mum at thebsofa and we eat the breakfast he made in silence.

I will thank him as soon as possible for, well for everything.

***

As the evening arrives i decide to go look for Bellamy, to tell him how much i appreciated what he did yesterday and this morning.

I hurry about the station, checking this place and that until i enter a very lively room, people obviously drinking.

I spot Jasper, then Monty, then Murphy, then Bellamy and...Raven.

For crying out loud, i have tried to forget about her.

I stand awkwardly in the doorway, the room so loud and crowded that no one sees me.

Bellamy is sat accross the room on a higher platform with his friends, he looks drunk but he isnt laughing with everyone else.

I start pushing my way towards him, the crowd as hard to get through as a solid wall!

Finally i spot an opening and slip through, looking up just in time to see Raven walk up to Bellamy and curl her hands around his neck, twisting her fingers into his hair.

She leans closer, whispers something in his ear and goes to kiss his neck, practically sat on him.

I look away now, my eyes burning. I stumble back through the crowd, feeling trapped and claustrophobic.

I practically fall out into the hallway, gasping for air.

Not Raven...anyone but Raven...would i have been okay had it been someone else? Why do i even care...

"Clarke is that you?"

I sieze up at the sound of his voice...why do i feel so...betrayed?

"Clarke?"

I turn around slowly but stay silent.

"Clarke are you alright? You look like you might be sick, what is it?" Bellamy asks stepping foward.

Images, memories, flashbacks freeze me for a moment, my vision temporarily disabled.

No. No. No... not him aswell...please no...

"Clarke? Can you hear me?" He asks more loudly, coming even closer, he reaches for my arm but i jump back.

"Dont fucking touch me!" I cry, consumed by fear, overthrown by the need to scream and the urge to cry.

Bellamy winces "Clarke, whats wrong?" He asks seriously and i stare at him through blurred eyes.

"Stay away...home early...i didnt know...Bellamy...no...." i murmer, not fully aware i am speaking.

Bellamy takes one more step closer and i jump back again, flashing him one more look before running away, dissapearing into the darkness.

AN: Why does she hate Raven so much? Are Raven and Bellamy together?

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