In Hate, We Love

30. You Love Him

"Okay, here I go, off to tell the council that the vice chancellor has been killing off citizens in order to maintain resources..."

I hear my mum mumbling to herself across the room and I stand.

"Mum it will be fine! There is plenty of evidence, Bellamy and I are witnesses, you show them the lab and the patients files and Kane will be locked up, all this madness can stop" I say calmly, feeling Bellamy's presence beside me.

"Alright...God you are just kids" she says breathlessly, looking from me to Bellamy and back again, "well its all out of your hands now so dont go concerning yourself with the councils business anymore" she says, doing up her jacket.

"Believe me we wont" Bellamy chuckles and I nod.

Mum nods nervously then leaves.

I turn to Bellamy, "you should go home, be with your mum and have a shower, you stink - even more than usual" I say with a smile, the air between us still slightly uneasy.

Bellamy folds his arms, smiling for just a moment before it dissapears entirely, his gaze travels to my hip, "Clarke...what did happen when I was...drugged, how- how did I get back to-"

"Bellamy dont worry about that now okay! You really should go home" I insist, feeling the ache in my stomach get stronger.

I practically shove Bellamy out of the door, despite all his protests, I plant a quick kiss on his cheek, say "see you soon" and shut the door in his face.

I lean back against it and breathe out slowly, closing my eyes.

I head for the bathroom and take off my bandages to shower.

When I get out, my hair dripping water down the back of my clean clothes, I get a new bandage and wrap up my hip again, the cut long and deep, still glistening where the blood hasn't clotted.

I wander about the house for a bit, cleaning and switching the tv on and off, not sure what to do with myself. Eventually I decide to visit Wells, we havent really spoken properly recently. I feel like a terrible friend, he deserves to know everything that has happened.

I knock on Well's door and invite myself in when he opens it.

"Wells how are you?" I ask, sitting down and looking his neck over, its better but clearly still painful.

"Clarke where on the Ark have you been-"

"I have a lot to explain to you!" I say and I tell him everything.

I tell him how Bellamy supported me, how Bellamy had pulled me away from him at the dance (to annoy him, is the reason I give Wells), how Bellamy helped me when my house was wrecked, how my mum told me my dad was in quarentine, how Bellamy protected me from Murphy, how Bellamy apologised for everything, how he took me to dinner (I don't specify that we ate in a hidden room, Wells doesnt need to know that), how Bellamy helped me when my dad died, how he had protected me during the Lock Down and how we noticed something 'off' about it, how Finn came to my house and I saw the scratches and realised Finn was Wells' attacker, how Bellamy and I broke into the Councils office to find out what was going on and how Finn attacked us and was then supposedly arrested. I tell him about the ball and deoxydrin, how Kane attacked us and I kissed Bellamy to get him free from the drug and how we realise now that Kane was using Jackson to create murderers for population control.

I tell him everything, every mention of Bellamy showing a flash of pain in his eyes, jealousy. I hadnt planned on telling anyone that I had kissed Bellamy but it had just slipped out and I didnt just want Wells knowing bits and pieces, I owed it to him to fill in the blanks and he definitely deserves to know about Finn, even if I cant tell him what will happen to Finn now...I think about him lying there, motionless but alive in that lab...what will happen to him?

Wells takes a moment to take it all in, he had known bits of course but now i see him putting it all together in his head.

"I cant believe Kane would do all that! All those people...and Jackson? Do you think Jackson was forced to help? And Finn, you said he had been arrested, even after you told me that, my dad said they had arrested Finn and that he had confessed...but then you found him in that old lab?" Wells asks, sounding overwhelmed.

I nod.

"God this is so messed up..." he groans, putting his head in his hands.

"You okay? Are you...are you glad I told you?" I ask hesitantly, wondering now if he wanted to know any of that.

"Yeah I just, I cant believe you did all that and I wasnt there...Bellamy-"

"He doesnt remember that I..." my voice trails off and Wells nods slowly, looking awfully sad.

"The dance...you said it was Bellamy who pulled you away from me...why?" Wells asks, not looking at me directly.

"I told you, to annoy you-"

"Right..." he doesnt sound like he believes me, "you know, it seems silly to think about all the way back then but I invited you to that dance to tell you Clarke that I really like you...more than like you..." Wells says quietly, still not looking me in the eyes and my heart aches for him.

"Wells-"

"I know...you dont feel the same" he sighs, and looks up now, "but...Bellamy..."

I am frozen for a moment, entirely taken aback by the meaning behind what Wells is saying!

"What...Wells-"

"Clarke, it's okay..." he says, taking my hands in his, "You love him."

AN: waffly chapter, sorry this was like a recap of the entire book, I thought it might be good to link it all up, and it helped Wells to help Clarke face her feelings. Will she act on it or will she continue to run?

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