Look At Me

~Confession Before Leaving~

Nathalia's P.O.V.

"Tired?" Flint asked once he saw me massaging my temples as we slowly walked out of the arrival area at our airport, I don't know how to discribe what's happening to Flint but I think he very deep in thought. He actually stopped smiling and talking to me when we started to board the plane at Bali, I thought he got mad at something I did but I can't think of anything which I did that made him mad.

"Super, I'm so happy that we had to meet some foreign shareholders just for a day. If not then I think my nose would've been bleeding all night" Good thing that there's no kpop group with us today or else the whole airport is surrounded by fans and photographers, at least all of them are still at the dorm or at China and Japan.

"A girl who's very fluent in English will have a bleeding nose? What kind of irony do you want to make me believe?" I may come from and spent years in Paris but the language there is French and not English, though other people are already learning English for fun and future uses when travelling of course.

"Anyway, do you have some plans today?" I stopped walking and think, we landed at Seoul at the afternoon but still I'm feeling a bit jetlagged and so tired from all the business meetings we had so...

"Rest, rest and rest" I need beauty sleep Flint and I hope you can give that chance to rest for now...

"I should've expected that from a girl like you" He chuckled which means he's either taunting me or he's planning to take me somewhere today... please I'm to tired from climbing up the trees at Bali, I need to rest my muscles too...

"Why? Are you going to go somewhere?" He then slowly tapped my hand so I can let go to my luggage as he both pulled his and my luggage and continued to walk.

"I'd like to have lunch with you for today, can I?" Now to think of it, he's starting to feel warm and pleased again. Is he perhaps tired or did someone really just entered his body? Was there a missing soul always with us? I don't understand him anymore.

"Sure, I'm quite hungry but tired also" One more strange happening, I'm really going to confront him and ask what's wrong. Since we're at the arrival area we can't see any food stalls and fast food here, we still have to exit Incheon airport and find a good restaurant for us to eat.

We then found a restaurant that is very much interesting to eat at, Flint wasn't himself anymore when the owner tired asking what we'll eat Flint stared at space again. So I just ordered what we usually eat  eat when we're together, even when the owner served us the meal he still looks too much deep in thought.

"Why are you looking at me like that? Am I ugly?" I finally asked when he started looking at me in both amusement but I don't know how to describe the other thing, he's eyes were looking at me softly but there's something behind thoe softeness...

"You look beautiful and eat the same way 6 years ago" Now this is already fucked up, what the heck is really wrong with him? I placed my chopsticks down and stared at him in worry, he's been changing his attitude since this morning and yet he's still acting as if he's fine? Shall I do the honor and send him to the assylum.

"You're creeping me out a bit, you need to stop staring at me like I'm the most interesting thing you know in the world" I joked but the look in his eyes made me more nervous and worried, he's taking my joke very serious... there is something wrong with him....

"You are"

"You okay?" This time I'm really dead worried, usually when I'm joking he'll also tell a joke back which will either make me happy or irritated but now...

"Let's just eat first" Flint uttered and them proceeded to eat, since the atmosphere isn't that likely good anymore I also just continued to eat the foods that I ordered. Hopefully as he sends me home, he'll tell me everything in his mind so I wouldn't worry too much like this.

"Flint, you're strangely quiet eversince the morning and when we landed in Seoul. Is everything okay?" Now we're on our way to my house as Flint is driving and the atmosphere is once, quiet and boring.

"I'm fine, just thinking" Even the words he chose to utter are very much strange to hear from him, what is he thinking about that makes me unimportant?

"Can't you tell me? Even just a hit of what you're thinking?" Flint looks at me before turning his head back to the road.

"If I do you'll only think of me as a creepy man" He's really not going to tell me is he?

"Then perhaps, are you thinking of me?" I tried to made it sound fun but it appears to be very much serious, I'm creeped out when he's thinking about me. Why? Simply because Flint isn't a person who will just think of me in times like this, and I'm just right here beside him but he's still thinking of me? What kind of nonesense is that?

"Sorry for asking too much, I just made the atmosphere awkward" Flint didn't answer me but instead he just keeps on staring at the road as if he didn't even heard anything, the whole ride was that quiet as I began to really feel bad and my emotions we're also down. When we reached my house, Flint went off and put my luggage down from the compartment of his car and then he came back only to sit on the driver's seat again.

"Thank you for the dinner and the ride" I said continuously as the awkard atmosphere still remained in the car, I just want to go home and sleep knowing that Flint wouldn't entertain me anymore. He started acting strange even before we board the plane at Bali, I then hesitantly tried to go out from the car because the look in Flint's face is sending me a message that he's somehow going to tell me something yet he's still contemplating it.

"Nathalie" Just when I was about to close the car door, Flint called me so I looked at him in curriosity and uttered the 3 words I dread to hear from him...

"I love you"